My father just remembered that I had a letter from Manchester in the post today, yes we are a nocturnal family.
It was another 'unsuccessful'. I've already been rejected from UCL (the feedback form from the interview said that I seemed 'superficial' and 'detached' and therefore lacked people skills and empathy). My teachers who know me were horrified by the comments- I just got my school report today, and apparently I write 'thoughtful and empathetic english essays', and 'should be commended for my willingness to help others in biology'. I do know that I'm quite idealistic, but surely that's a positive attribute? Both UCL and Manchester put a much stronger emphasis on clinical practice, so they filter out the more...I don't know, 'abstract people'?
Anyway, Manchester did say that I interviewed well, but ultimately there were too many applications and they didn't have space for me, which is perfectly understandable, and I would rather that the offer wasn't wasted on me. However ultimately after I graduate I will be in a similar situation again in finding a position, and the academic shadow of Cambridge may again be a problem. I want to be a good clinician too damn it!
Friends keep reasuring me that loads of Cambridge medics get rejected by other places- but that in itself isn't very reasuring. Especially if medical schools are filtering people at this stage into 'different types of doctors'. But on another level I guess it does make sense, as you wouldn't want to give the scientific grounding to someone who's just not interested, and equally you don't want someone who may become dissatisfied with the course.
Sorry for the rather long winded post. I just feel like a loose part in the system atm. Hopefully I'll find where I'm useful soon.