Getting married to a close COUSIN

So when I was 17 my mum's brother came to visit England and he asked if I would marry his son (my cousin). Now getting married to people within the family is really common in my family.
I agreed to get married because I was told it was what my Nan had wanted (she passed away when I was 15) and I wanted to make her happy in a way. It felt like it was her last wish or something.
However, now that I'm 21 and the marriage is being planned to occur in two years time, I don't think I can go through with it. I can't get over the fact that he is my cousin even though he is a great guy. I don't know what to do as everyone in my close family knows about the rishta (proposal) and everyone encouraged me to agree to it.
At the time that I agreed I was quite young and didn't really know what I wanted my husband to be like and now that I know, I feel that my cousin is not the right guy for me.

I really don't know where to go from here because I also don't want to hurt my family and I know if I refuse then my mum will be really upset. I'm just really confused. I also wanted to know that if cousin marriages still happen in other families or is it just my family that's living in the past.

Before you ask, yes I am Asian.
Also I know that a lot of people don't understand cousin marriages but as I said it's normal in my family.

Thank you in advance for your help.

I'm not Asian but I've noticed that nowadays, Asian families are becoming liberal in terms of who their children gets married to. If your parents are strict, you might have a harder chance of trying to convince them that you don't want to go through with it. If they are not strict, talk to them about how you feel. If you feel like you can't talk to them, maybe talk to someone who is really close to the family, tell them how you feel and ask them to talk to your parents on your behalf.

This ****ing nan ****ing people even in death.

Tell your family to **** off.

I am surprised this is Asian too.

Usually it is the podunk Tenesseee or Liverpool inbreeders who do this kind of ****

**** me im gonna log off now

Could be worse.

It could be your brother.

Incest is disgusting and immoral.

Marrying your sibling doesn't necessarily equate to sex ;D

So when I was 17 my mum's brother came to visit England and he asked if I would marry his son (my cousin). Now getting married to people within the family is really common in my family.
I agreed to get married because I was told it was what my Nan had wanted (she passed away when I was 15) and I wanted to make her happy in a way. It felt like it was her last wish or something.
However, now that I'm 21 and the marriage is being planned to occur in two years time, I don't think I can go through with it. I can't get over the fact that he is my cousin even though he is a great guy. I don't know what to do as everyone in my close family knows about the rishta (proposal) and everyone encouraged me to agree to it.
At the time that I agreed I was quite young and didn't really know what I wanted my husband to be like and now that I know, I feel that my cousin is not the right guy for me.

I really don't know where to go from here because I also don't want to hurt my family and I know if I refuse then my mum will be really upset. I'm just really confused. I also wanted to know that if cousin marriages still happen in other families or is it just my family that's living in the past.

Before you ask, yes I am Asian.
Also I know that a lot of people don't understand cousin marriages but as I said it's normal in my family.

Thank you in advance for your help.

Before you ask, yes I am Asian.
Also I know that a lot of people don't understand cousin marriages but as I said it's normal in my family.

Thank you in advance for your help.

This ****ing nan ****ing people even in death.

Tell your family to **** off.

I am surprised this is Asian too.

Usually it is the podunk Tenesseee or Liverpool inbreeders who do this kind of ****

**** me im gonna log off now