Third week at university and it's the most boring thing. There's supposed to be a focus on independence and that is what I was looking forward to, but that is a lie.
As I write this, I am missing a lecture. Today's schedule was an hour long seminar, followed by an hour long lecture an hour later, and then an hour long workshop an hour after the lecture. I went to the seminar but it lasted only twenty minutes and featured ridiculously trivial content. Because it finished early I couldn't be bothered waiting around for another hour and a half for the lecture to start and then have to wait another hour for the workshop to start so I just went home. I walk for thirty minutes to get to university so I just can't be bothered doing that every day just to wait around for trivial content. This is one factor of considering leaving.
There is also too much emphasis on sociality. I live at home so I don't need to adjust myself as much as international students do (i.e. I don't need to try to make new friends as much as people who have to adopt a completely new surrounding), and I accept that there is a bit of encouragement for people to get to know each other. But, in an average lecture there will be atleast three points where we will be asked to 'discuss with the person sitting next to you' and I just think - what is the actual point? In the time it takes for a lecture to finish, I could read perhaps three times as much as it contains in the same time frame. There aren't any chances for independence in seminars, tutorials or workshops either; it is constantly just asking for discussions- and nobody even wants to reciprocate a conversation most of the time- I definitely do not.
I just can not decide whether or not to leave; I want a degree but not all the rubbish that I apparently must do to get one.
I want to jump off a cliff and I ain't even joking. This isn't any of that 'ooh I think I am getting depression' nonsense, either.