Depression
Short Version: Uni making me depressed and losing motivation for everything in life such as gym/study. Main reason I went to uni is because of ex girlfriend. 3 weeks before my final exams, should I just not go (my current grades are at best a pass or C which is 45-60%) and get back to my life of exercising and working which makes me happy or should I just hold out and finish my first year then leave?
First year at university after taking 2 gap years and working full time. 2015 has been a pretty big year for me due to personal issues with my family and breaking off a 3 year relationship with my girlfriend. First semester was good my grades were at a D/HD average by the end of the semester. Half way through first semester I was having problems with my relationship so I decided to break it off and my study stagnated. Thought I would of failed but as I said grades remained strong. During the 5 week break at the end of the semester, I had a lot of time to think and I started getting back to normal and really enjoying my life by doing the things I love such as going to the gym and enjoying life in general.
Semester 2 rolls up and it becomes noticeably difficult and harder. I cope for the first 3 weeks but after that I bomb out. At about week 7 I get worse and worse losing motivation for everything and I felt that university was inhibiting doing the things I love like going to the gym and exercising. I have never felt like this before in my life even after I broke up with my girlfriend and I have always been pationate about going to the gym and exercising but now it's all gone. I am a very social person who has a quite a few good and real friends but I am not exactly sure what has brought this massive wave of demotivation. I literally don't care about uni anymore and no matter how hard I try to study I just can't. My final exams are in 3 weeks and I am really thinking of not going and just moving on with my life by returning to the gym and starting to work again.
(Extra info I left out
I was never the studious type of person even in high school, it was mainly my ex girlfriend who convinced me to try out university and I feel that me going to uni was only to please her and not really for myself and now that we are no longer together I feel it's pointless. Full time student going 4 days a week Monday-Thursday 8am-5pm, this includes travel time to and from uni (total of 2-3 hours) I work part time Saturday/Sunday 6 hours each day. Also living with my grandfather and support myself such as buying my own food and cooking my meals ect.
First year at university after taking 2 gap years and working full time. 2015 has been a pretty big year for me due to personal issues with my family and breaking off a 3 year relationship with my girlfriend. First semester was good my grades were at a D/HD average by the end of the semester. Half way through first semester I was having problems with my relationship so I decided to break it off and my study stagnated. Thought I would of failed but as I said grades remained strong. During the 5 week break at the end of the semester, I had a lot of time to think and I started getting back to normal and really enjoying my life by doing the things I love such as going to the gym and enjoying life in general.
Semester 2 rolls up and it becomes noticeably difficult and harder. I cope for the first 3 weeks but after that I bomb out. At about week 7 I get worse and worse losing motivation for everything and I felt that university was inhibiting doing the things I love like going to the gym and exercising. I have never felt like this before in my life even after I broke up with my girlfriend and I have always been pationate about going to the gym and exercising but now it's all gone. I am a very social person who has a quite a few good and real friends but I am not exactly sure what has brought this massive wave of demotivation. I literally don't care about uni anymore and no matter how hard I try to study I just can't. My final exams are in 3 weeks and I am really thinking of not going and just moving on with my life by returning to the gym and starting to work again.
(Extra info I left out
I was never the studious type of person even in high school, it was mainly my ex girlfriend who convinced me to try out university and I feel that me going to uni was only to please her and not really for myself and now that we are no longer together I feel it's pointless. Full time student going 4 days a week Monday-Thursday 8am-5pm, this includes travel time to and from uni (total of 2-3 hours) I work part time Saturday/Sunday 6 hours each day. Also living with my grandfather and support myself such as buying my own food and cooking my meals ect.
