ok going straight to the point: i really want to lose my virginity, however i don't want it to be with anyone who my friends know, like i want it to be with someone older who's distant from my normal life
it's weird i don't know why i'm so fussy when i wouldn't even mind if it was a one night thing because i reaally don't want a realtionship
also though it doesn;t have to be some amazingly romantic time i don't want it to be drunk in a club or something awful, i want my first time to be interesting somehow is this making any sense?
but yeah how would i go about doing this because it's so unrealistic and messed up probably
(im 18 and a girl btw)