Hi everyone, I'm new here. I have a problem and it freaks me out. It's all about a teacher, he's always in my mind and I just can't stop thinking about him. It started 3 years ago and it's getting worse and worse.
I don't know if I love him, sometimes I'm thinking about kissing him when we are alone, but fortunately I've never did that. That would be very weird
I think he knows that I'm obsessed with him, because I'm always searching for an excuse to be around him and to talk with him. But I don't want him to think that I'm paranoid or crazy or something like that. I try my best to act normal, I want to get him out my mind but I can't... I even dream about him!
I don't know why I'm so obsessed with him. I think he's really interesting and I just want to know everything about him, I ask him often things about his personal life and it makes me happy when he's telling me details about his life. It's like he's a celeb and I'm a crazy fan who gets her time to talk with her idol.
But the other thing is that I can't concentrate when I see him or talk with him, it's really confusing and that's why I think I'm maybe in love with him. When I see him talking with female teachers, I feel something inside me like I'm jealous or something... It's so weird...
I'm thinking about telling him all of this, but I'm afraid he won't talk with me anymore or he will be very angry... What do you think?
* My English isn't very good, I'm Dutch