Hi, just wondering what happened some years ago that made you popular? Having said that, I can relate somewhat to what you've written. I find big groups and lots of friends draining though I have learnt to be better at it, i.e. socializing in this context. Mostly though, and this may not at all be helpful to you, I grew tired of my own expectations that I ought to be like this, that or the other. I just got tired of the struggle. Now I have 2 very close friends and another 5 or close close acquitances and I find it works. I also got a dog. I don't know if this will help but I came across that quote from Amiel, "learn to be all that you are and learn to resign with a good grace all that you are not". I don't if it's accurate or not or even if it's the right context; I heard it in the show " Being Erica"