Hello, I wonder if anyone would give me advice or their thoughts on my situation..?
I'm 18 years old, and am in a real quandary. I have always hoped/intended to study Law, and now everything seems to be unraveling at an alarming rate...
I am in Y13, sitting A2's in Philosophy, History and Maths this month, however I took the decision to leave school and study from home at Christmas, due to significant and demanding responsibilities at home, and a lack of real support from school .
My mother is a single parent and was diagnosed with cancer in 2012, the last 4 years have been a hideous cycle of treatment and surgery which have been grueling. My elder brother is at university in Zurich, so although he is supportive, it is difficult for him to help practically. We live hundreds of miles away from any family members and things are pretty dire. My mum has gone from being a gregarious, happy, funny woman to a reclusive, immobile and very anxious shadow of her former self. I do the vast majority of the housework, shopping, I walk the dogs, deal with bills/money etc, as well as working part-time and this has impacted greatly on my ability to concentrate on school work .School are aware of my situation, and are empathetic, but the school was put into special measures in January, due mainly to an inherent lack of pastoral support, which regretfully, I have to say is wholly justified.
GCSE - 4A*, 7A,
AS -AABBC
I know I would have done much better if I hadn't been in this situation, and it frustrates me. I have excellent work experience, I was on the Oxford University Pathways to Law programme, and led our school debating team to victory in 2014. I speak another European language fluently (self taught) and intend to learn more.
My question is this... I am predicted A* AA at A2, but I feel thoroughly unprepared, depressed and incredibly hopeless...I do not feel I will give my best...I am wondering whether to postpone sitting my A2 exams until next June? My mum has finished all her surgery and treatment (April) and so we are now looking forward to a much better times ahead. Do you think it may be prudent to concentrate fully on studying for my A2 exams and sit them for the first time in June 2017, rather than sitting them this year, performing badly, and having to re-sit? This could be explained in my UCAS application, and I feel I would easily reach my predicted grades without the dreadful emotional strain I have been under for the last 4 years. Basically, I don't want to under-perform this year, and then have to resit next year.
What does everyone think? I'm sorry to ramble, but I'm in such a pickle...any thoughts or advice would be gratefully appreciated. Thank guys.