Before I start, I will hold my hands up and say that I am most likely to blame for the issues I have, but basically, University is ****. My course is the best part about university for me at the moment. My social life is DEAD. I went out 5 TIMES IN THE FIRST TERM. I have no social life and very little friends, which I am unused to as I have a lot of friends at home and go out multiple times a week. At university, I'll be lucky to be out twice a month.
I have friends on my course, but they mostly live at home so rarely socialise outside of course times. The ones who do live here have their friends from their halls, which are strangers to me. My flat mates are quiet, I live with three other girls, two of which very rarely leave their rooms and go home a lot of the time. The other girl is the girl who I very rarely go out with but she has a very close knit group of friends from her course, like, very very close and they do everything together. They go out multiple times a week and never ask me to go with them and I feel pushy and unwanted when I do ask, which I have done, multiple times. My flat and I don't eat together and it's a rare occurrence if I actually speak to anyone if I'm not at university. Its the second term of first year now and I still feel like the ice isn't broken. I still feel like I wouldn't be welcome going and knocking on their door and having a conversation with them. I feel like they feel the same about me as well.
I don't know what to do, all my friends at other universities are practically out every night and have such close friends, I don't have that at all and it's so sad for me. I need social interaction and for some reason university hasn't provided me with that. I should have joined a society, but there was nothing in my interest at the time but now I regret it slightly.
I have asked for my flatmates to come out but they have none of it and its literally making me depressed. I can no longer sit in my room, staring at my four walls hearing about how all my friends are having the time of their lives. The only option is to leave because I am seriously miserable, someone please tell me they are in the same position as me.