I need some help. I'm sixteen, and have been in and out of periods of real sadness and self-consciousness.
Recently, I have tried to look into why I continuously think about my appearance, and after some googling, I found that it sounds like I'm suffering with body dismorphia. I'm chubby, and I always have been, but recently I've been comfort eating a load because school is really demanding and stressful, and I eat instead of doing anything harmful to myself. I struggle to stop eating and feel huge amounts of guilt and regret after eating. I've got a really unhealthy relationship with food and it feels so impossible to change it. I've got beautiful slim sisters and a tiny, pretty best friend, so I find it really hard to feel good about myself. I use the treadmill every school morning for about 10 minutes, but it hasn't really changed my weight. Whenever I eat small amounts, I always end up binge eating afterwards. I feel so stuck and it's terrible. I know the solution: eat less, but despite knowing what I should be doing, I continually don't do it.
Also, I have weirdly shaped teeth (there's a name for the condition) - it's a hard characteristic to embrace because it stops me from being able to talk, laugh and smile freely. You can imagine how restricting it feels! Dental caps are too expensive for my mum (about £400 per tooth) and it hasn't been confirmed that they are available on the NHS, despite its drastic effect on my daily life.
All of this in mind, I want to be truly happy in my skin because I can just imagine how degrading prom will be when I feel like I look like , woo. I've gotten a bursary to attend boarding school for A-Levels so i would love to be mentally strong and confident for that! I struggle to live without thinking about how I look and how I have failed myself.
In short, I want to ask anyone if they've been through body dismorphia, and how they dealt with it? Do you recommend me to see a doctor, to be prescribed any medication to help me? Or shall I let it pass like a stage of teenagehood and just hope that o won't be too broken to function? I've been stuck in this cycle for a good three years but it's gotten too intense for me now.
Dealing with depression/body dysmorphia
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