I feel a bit selfish for wanting more time with him. And I feel bad for asking people on the internet about this, but during an attempted discussion of this issue with him he ignored trying to find a solution,making me think he seems happy with how things are...and that maybe I should be too, so I want to know what you guys think :-)
The issue is that he is popular with many friends. Which is nice, I'm happy he has friends. But I haven't got any friends (I've tried making friends but I don't 'click' with anyone, and my class is ridiculously small making it harder to find people who match my personality ect ect) so I'm always rather lonely and sit alone by myself - which is fine, that's the situation that lifes thrown at me, I'll deal with it. But the thing is my boyfriend sits in the same study hall as me, and he see's me studying alone and miserable for hours in the same spot, and working away through lunch and break as I haven't got friends to hangout with.
And he just sits with his mates, indifferent to my sadness, he does come and talk to me every now and then but not for long, 15 minutes maximum, sometimes not at all but spends hours with them in the study hall. I want him to have lot's of good qaulity time with his friends, although I don't know his friends well most of them seem very nice (Except one picks on me, gossips about me and sniggers)
So I like seeing him have fun with them, I love him being happy. But I wish he could keep me company a bit more as I'm feeling upset for being such a loser and for obvious reasons feel lonely. I just feel he's balancing me and his friendships a bit unevenly. His friends brought his attention to me sitting lonely (he was 6 chairs away only) and he just boasted about how good it was to have a girlfriend but didn't approach me.
What do you think?
(Please don't be mean)