Feel *****y.
I feel like im never acc happy. Like when im happy there is always sadness there underneath like a lump in my throat and sometimes im smiling and will just randomly start crying. unless im like euphoric which happens occasionally but not often.
what is acc the point of being alive.
like what if next year is just as crap.
probably still be lonely only this time i wont have even my mum to hug and it will just be me fending for myself.
like anyone acc is bothered tho, do me a favour dont get close to me then air me for ages bc it saddens me and i already have too much sadness.
cant believe there is still 12 months of this **** and everyone getting bored and moving on before i can move on myself and who knows if that moving on will even be a better thing.
if it isnt that's it cba anymore