i've been suffering from an eating disorder for about 2 years now and lately it's got much, much worse (i count calories and restrict my food to get a sense of control, but with exams and stress it's really hard not to just eat my feelings, which makes me even more stressed, less confident and less able to concentrate). recently my stress and anxiety caused by all this has led me to harming myself in order to deal with it, instead of coping with my problems in a healthy way, because
1. no one knows about my mental health issues and i would prefer if it remained that way since it's unnecessary stress for my family and friends and i'm sure it will go away once i'm at university in september, and
2. i just generally don't like talking about my feelings so it's hard to resist self harm when i've internalised all this negativity for so long
so i was wondering if any of you had advice on self-help (i don't intend to get any clinical help or to talk to parents, teachers or doctors any time soon so please don't recommend this) - how can i tell myself it's okay to eat a bit too much during exam time and how do i prioritise my revision until this is over? it's really hard and it's wasting so much of my time