Little background, I was shy when growing up due to bullying and because of performance anxiety I never attempted to lose my virginity as that would destroy my very low self esteem.
In my early twenties I did finally get a girlfriend but hated her personality and looks and just wanted it so just got semi which wasn't pleasurable for either of us.
Did have a few times when I got really excited and it really did make a difference, was so long that my skin was too tight but I loved the feeling of being in a woman.
After a terrible family death my self esteem was destroyed despite just before that finally coming out of my shell, being popular, getting best night sleep of my life, finally getting a good job and such.
It was difficult to get beyond semi after that but at least I could get a semi, then one day I felt this pain inside the penis just under the head like a pulled muscle sensation and 5 years have passed since then and it hasn't got any better, even when im aroused all that happens is I get a bruised like feeling inside it which is sore (not end of the world sore but enough that I feel bad enough to not leave the house)
I did ask the doctor who just said lose weight and get a good diet, and after a while gave me some viagra which only works if I take it first thing in morning on empty stomach and I need to be horny (which is difficult first thing in morning) the whole time, my mind wanders for a second and it goes back to nothing.
And its still sore witht hat but less like a bruised/sprain feeling and more like I have sat the wrong way.
Doctor hasn't even examined it.
The weird thing is I have too high testosterone so this shouldnt happen in fact at times double the normal level yet I am weak and tired all the time and timid.
Always have pain in my privates (male) and think thats why I can't get aroused.
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