So in 2 weeks I would have finished my first year at university. Although I do speak to my flatmates occassionally, (although I tend to avoid them because 1) I feel as though I have social anxiety and 2) I don't have much in common with them), and I have a friend who invites me out to do stuff, I feel like I've made no "friends for life" at uni so far. Last night I had a dream that one of my best friends from home, an acquaintance from my secondary school and another random guy went to my university and we were having a great time together. It's quite depressing to me that this doesn't happen in real life. There are occasions where it could happen (e.g. when my friend invites me out) but I tend to make excuses due to anxiety. Therefore I tend to just spend my whole day lying in bed which is not what I really want. University is supposed to be enjoyable, and whilst some of it has been, I would say I've had more downs than ups. I just get a bit jealous when people on Facebook are like "I've made such great people here, thanks for the wonderful first year of uni" because I can't really say that. Some people I know are even going on holiday with people they've met at uni.
I do want to start going out more with my friend, as this would result in making more friends, but as I said I feel as though I have social anxiety, and I'm not really into clubbing, and that seems like the only thing he invites me to. I've been out with him a couple of times, but I find that I always have to drink lots of alcohol beforehand so I'm not so anxious. Also, with exams coming up, I don't think I'll be able to go out with them until next year as I was planning on leaving a couple of days after my exams. It would be a bad thing to end my 1st year of uni experience on, knowing that I haven't been out with friends since like early March.
So, any advice? I feel like going to the doctors about my social anxiety situation. But it's just annoying because I made an effort at the beginning of the year but anybody who I tried to make friends with kind of just pushed me away.
Had a dream that I had a few great friends at uni... made me depressed when I woke up
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