Please don't judge me for any of this but I am known as being a revision freak, I always have been. Even for poxy mocks which I look back and wonder why I stressed myself out so much, I always stressed. I've always been quite a stressful person but GCSE's are killing me.
I know every says they're not hard and every does them and stuff, but it's at the point where I haven't left my house pretty much all weekend for the past 3/4 months as I'm studying all day, and when I'm not, I'm freaking out over the fact everyone else is studying and I'm not. The whole concept of people studying and I'm not scares me so much, even if it's to walk my dog for 10 minutes in the evening after revising all day.
The thing is, I am prepared. I have been revising for months and have all the resources and have done all the revision, but I'm scared I'll forget it all and stuff.
But it's got to the point where I'm screaming and arguing with my mum in floods of tears constantly all because I'm too scared to leave the house and I don't know what to do. It sounds so drastic but I'm constantly crying or thinking about exams or panicking about failure. Today I revised for 10 hours and my parents wanted to go out with me and I cried hysterically making up excuses even though I had already finished revising. I don't understand why I did that and I then got upset that they went without me and that I let exams get in the way and I don't know what's wrong with me.
I'm predicated mostly A's and A*'s and have a place at a grammar school for sixth form, providing I get the grades. However, I got twice as many A's as I need to get into sixth form for my mocks and I'm just so petrified and I can't control it.
I know this sounds so drastic but I can't control it anymore and it's starting to become obsessive that I can't leave the house. So much so that all I do is argue with my parents, sister, boyfriend and friends because I put revision before them and I can't help it because the guilt is so overwhelming if I don't as I'm so scared I'll fail.
If anyone has any advice then that would be massively appreciated
Please don't judge hah
Exams are massively affecting my mental state
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