it's long but please read:
I'm just coming to the end of my school life and A2 exams, and for the past 2 years, my mental health has been on a steady decline. I've suspected that something serious was up for months but in the past few weeks it's just plummeting. I feel like I'm living in a nightmare. I feel hollow and like I've completely lost grip on myself and my life. I used to be popular and high achieving and I've now just fallen into nothing. I've stopped going to school properly, I've stopped caring about work or my friends. I've given up all hope on my future.
I feel horrendously embarrassed, like I'm faking it. I'm not supposed to be like this. Everyone and everything in my life, objectively, is so great. Teachers used to love me. But now I haven't been to English ("favourite subject" in about 3 weeks and today I did and had to rush out for an "appointment" with a panic attack. My family are getting calls every day about my dwindling attendance. They are disappointed and confused.
I'm going to the GP next week. I haven't had a period since Jan (probs because I've lost about 6kg in the last month) so I'm going to talk about that, but I'm going to try super hard to bring up my mental health without falling into a hole of shame and chickening out.
My question is: if I get a diagnosis, should I tell my teachers?? I don't want to be the one who just expects special treatment for never doing anything and I really don't want people to look at me differently (although I'm pretty sure people are confused about what is going on). But I'm so alone with all of this and I just need someone to understand. How would I tell a teacher? I'm so sad- I love English. I love my teachers and I want them to know I'm not trying to be lazy and a **** student and I want to apologise in advance for my crappy grades.
What a spectacular end to my 14 years of school education !!!!
talking to teachers about depression?
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