I seem to be having some post-exam related stress/anxiety... my last university exam was last week and since then I quite literally can't find a place for myself. I'm worried I didn't do as well as I need for a 2.1 and won't be accepted onto an MSc I'm holding an offer for... I can't do anything - I sleep badly because I'm constantly on edge, I wake up being on edge, I'm getting an upset stomach because I started eating so quickly. I can't concentrate on things like TV, let alone books... I cannot relax. I cannot check uni email without physically shaking even though I know the exams haven't been marked yet. my mind is in a constant state of replaying the exams, trying to remember the questions/answers... and of course I can't remember them, which makes me stressed even more. Alternatively I try to convince myself it's all alright but then I tell myself to stop being silly and remember the last time I failed at this and that...
objectively I need 56% average in the above to get my 2.1 but pffftttccch who knows what I wrote, I can't even judge my performance objectively.... oh my god, another month+ of this. must say, I'm on beta blockers for performance anxiety (dissertation presentation next week woop) - tried taking these but they only help for a couple of hours like they should, also I'm in CBT at my university. Tried Headspace and other things, they work temporarily only. My question - will my body tire of this state and when??