I'm going to preface this by stating that I am fully aware of how foolish I have been.
I started my first year at University last autumn. Up until University I was very excited, I enjoyed college a lot and couldn't wait to meet like-minded people and really come out of my shell. I left college feeling elated and had a great summer, until a few weeks before University. I started to feel really depressed, and I mean suicidally so. I still have no idea why I felt that way, I would think about suicide every day. These feelings continued throughout my first term at University, I made no friends because I wanted to sleep all of the time. I would just go to University, do my lectures and seminars and then go back home.
In February I just stopped going. I feel ridiculous saying this, but I didn't inform the University at all. After 2 weeks I went to my doctor about my feelings and he recommended going to see a University counsellor. I never did, I did nothing but sleep and watch trashy movies for about 4 months; I was sleeping about 12-13 hours every time. The suicidal thoughts also persisted. I am making this thread because I want to know what my options are. Can I contact the University at all or will I just be dismissed as a time waster?
After contemplating my options without seeing my degree all the way through, it honestly seems dire and I now realise the opportunity that I have squandered. I have been uneasy with the notion of explaining how I have felt after so long because I feel they may just see that as attempting to elicit sympathy.
After the time I put into college I cannot believe that I have effectively ruined my life after a few months.