I grew up with both parents- my mum was alright but my dad was really strict (used beatings as punishments, always angry, raised his voice often etc). One thing that I've also noticed about him is that he is emotionally absent i.e. He never expresses love or compassion, and when he does try and do it, it comes across very awkward. As ive gotten older his aggression has calmed down abit but I still feel as if I am stepping on egg shells around him. I can't have 'banter' or express my feelings with him, but with my mum I can. Sometimes I get really jealous when I see other people share jokes and have fun with their parents, but for me I cant do that. Im not entirely sure if my father's actions have/will impact me later on in life but many psychologists have found links between the relationship between a daughter and her father and how it impacts her love life. I'm in my late teens but I've never dated anyone. Im alright with talking to boys but can get a tiny bit shy depending on their level of attractiveness. I have some self esteem issues but I don't think this is a direct link between the relationship of me and my dad. But overall I think I'd generally be more happier if I had a father who actually showed that he understood and cared for me.