One of the things I enjoy about being single - is that I only have to worry about myself. I personally feel like it takes a lot of energy and thinking capacity to incorporate another person into my life. Because I treat myself like a valuable payload. I feel like if I was to ever get into one, I would have to treat that person at the same standards I hold myself. I am sure most of you have heard the term of 'not spreading yourself too thin'. Makes me afraid that other parts of my life will diminish if I was to get into one. The worst part is - I have no idea on how to go about the process in getting into a relationship. Since there seems to be no algorithm for it.
I have felt like I needed to be in a relationship before, but I was a child and a complete dunce. My thought process at the time was a sporadic mess of melancholy. Since my friends at the time had a boyfriend/girlfriend, I thought it was the social convention that I have one as well, but never took action. Everyone was engaging in carnal affairs, so there was the expectation that I did the same.