As the title says, I missed my uni offers just over a week ago. I had Cambridge as my firm and I was so excited to go there but unfortunately I missed out on a second A* by a few UMS so was rejected, and also rejected from my insurance for the same missed grade.
I wasn't as upset as I thought I would be to start with, however my remarks just came back without changing so I think that now it's really hit home that I'm not going to university. All my friends are talking about uni and it's really getting to me. I feel like **** all the time because, without trying to sound arrogant, I was always one of the top 3 or so cleverest at my school and nobody ever thought (myself included) that it would be me who missed a university offer. I'm normally quite modest so that feels wrong to say but it's true.
My best friend was accepted to her first choice (a top uni, won't say which) despite getting ABB instead of AAA and is now moaning that she doesn't actually want to do that course and they won't let her swap. I feel like a bad friend but at the same time, I just want to tell her to shut up, she got accepted to a great uni for a great course without even having the grades, she should feel lucky. Someone else I know got into an AAA course with BCC. I know life is unfair but it's been really hard for me to see these people get in when they did a fair bit worse than I did.
My teachers are telling me to apply for Oxford this year, since I checked with them and my grades are fine for applying there. I really can't decide if I want to or not, part of me feels like I could be successful there as I got an offer for Cambridge and everything, but part of me is scared to get rejected again since I feel I got quite lucky with my Cambridge offer.
So yeah, I'm struggling. I have some good things lined up for a gap year but it's not the same. I'm dreading the end of September when most of my friends go off to uni, I know that will kill me. I didn't exactly get bad grades (A*AAA) but school was always one thing I was good at, even if everything else in life was going wrong I knew I could go to school and do well in lessons and exams. I'd set my heart too much on Cambridge and now I seem to spend hours a day crying over the fact that I threw away such a great opportunity. I'm trying to get out the house and distract myself but it's hard to be around friends who are just talking about what they're doing to prepare for uni.
Sorry this is quite long, thanks to anyone who read it all
Constantly feel like crap after missing uni offers