I'm a private candidate doing A level Maths and Further Maths. I didn't take my studies seriously when I was in sixth form and now 19 and unemployed. I was studying really hard at the start of September and was planning to leave my job at McDonald's for a job at Nando's, long story short, I left McDonald's for Nando's but Nando's didn't give me the job they'd promised me, so now I'm unemployed and don't want to go back to McDonald's.
Now you may be wondering what does this have to do with Cambridge and Maths, well I was planning to revise the whole of A level Maths and Further maths before Christmas starting from September so it was around 20 pages a day I had to read, I've been reading more than 20 pages a day sometimes 50, my goal was to try and get into Cambridge Maths, but after becoming unemployed I've been left in despair and cant't find any motivation to study.
When I pick up a book and try a simple question even after an hour trying to solve it I can't wrap my head around it, now that I've cooled down from my studying frenzy I'am asking myself if it's even worth it, because after studying the Further/Maths A levels I'll have to try and do A level Physics as a private candidate then do the STEP tests which I'm not even sure I can do well in, only to get into a university where the work I'll have to do will be ridiculously hard.
I can still get A*'s and go to a decent university with an easier syllabus, to begin with I'm nothing special like a maths genius, and I find it really difficult to study the things I consider boring. The thought of only having 3 months experience at McDonald's at the age of 19 and having to explain why I left so early in the first place only paints me an image of a bleak future.
Jesus this was a long post. Who will even read this xD.