I miss the times when I was at high school and would skip breakfast and lunch (would eat full tea with the family though). I felt good, sharper, more alive- it was fun and I felt in control. I've never gone on pro-ana sites and I don't want to be really thin like some pictures I see- they look terrible. I looked normal, bit chubby round the face but was slightly underweight on NHS BMI so I was happy. I hate that I am on healthy weight now. I have been eating chips a bit at college lately but want to stop and am hating how I look. I am nostalgic for these old days and want to start again (I stopped for exams in year 11 and didn't go back to it). Did I have a problem then though? I don't feel like I was ever 'anorexic' but maybe it wasn't a good thing idk.
I was always in control though and could (and did) stop whenever I wanted. I love cooking.