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Yeah, sounds like depersonalisation... Just to back up the other people who said that. But it definitely does sound like depersonalisation possibly mixed with depression.

Oh, and I completely understand the 'fake happiness' thing. For some reason, depression feels like the only genuine emotion.
I get this when I sleep in for too long and don't socialise enough. I guess personality is a big factor in feeling like this though. Try doing some fairly intense exercise; it forces me to reconnect so to speak.
That sounds really hard to deal with! Have you talked this through with anyone? How about just acting the way that you feel for the day? If you don't feel anything then don't react? I know that sounds like crap advice, but I felt like this once, and I hated feeling fake about everything!
Sometimes I feel like the things are happening to me aren't happening to me but to someone else, like I'm watching them happen to someone else, on TV or something, and I don't mean literally like I'm watching in my head, but I mean emotionally, it doesn't feel like it's happening to me. I don't get it that often, and it's hard to explain, which is why I'm not sure how relevant it is to this thread.
Reply 24
Saffie
Look up 'depersonalisation'.

It's commonly related to anxiety and stress. You're constantly worrying about how you look from the outside that you start to feel like you almost are permanently on the outside.

^^what this poster says. As soon as i saw the thread title i thought of depersonalisation, my ex boyfriend suffers from it and from what he told me it sounds like what you're going through. go see your gp, get some help, dont go through this on your own.
I've been like this since about the age of 14. It's a sort of incomprehensible detachment from reality - a gnawing feeling of unhappiness that has no obvious root, though a number of possible reasons. I'd say it's a level just beneath suicidal detachment: an inherent and incurable loneliness that is bred from a natural restlessness somewhere deep inside. I've always felt restless, I've always felt as if everything's happening so quickly that it almost isn't happening at all. It's not a very pleasant feeling, and I even think that most of the people who say they understand on this thread don't understand it at all.

I'm not really sure, but it nags at me and eventually leaves me feeling empty and frustrated.