(Original post by Anonymous)
I hate that im not a normal lad that everyone likes women and i hate im not a blokey bloke if you get what i mean.
Being gay doesn't make you not a 'blokey bloke', apart from the whole not liking women thing, and not being a 'blokey bloke' doesn't make you gay. The two are certainly correlated, but not directly linked. I'm gay, but I'm not camp in any sense. What is it you dislike, just being abnormal, or being camp?
maybe you've just been basing your identity on your sexual preference because thats whats easiest when you're a teenager and struggling with your identity. if you dont feel comfortable with the image that you are projecting, if you dont feel that its "you" then just dont do it anymore. its not "going back" its just that you're growing up and getting to know yourself a bit better. everyone changes as they grow up. i was a goth for a while when i was 16 because i was struggling with my identity but it wasnt going back to change when i realised it wasnt who i am; it was a learning curve.