I'm not sure how to say this, and I identified this a while ago but I didn't really pin this point on the head.
My Grandad(lived with my like a dad) passed away about 2 years ago almost now. Last year doing AS, was weird. It was like my mind didn't want to work but I tried my best. It's infuriateing because I don't know if it is just me or maybe stress can affect performance.
I didn't get spectacular AS and this might give me some C's for preditive grades for Uni. I wish it never happened, but there is nothing I can do. I feel better and I don't grieve or feel depressed as much so I'm trying my best at A2. I got my highest ever marking so far, a High B grade, few marks off an A in English.
Im worried about who I'm competing against for Uni. AAA predicted flawless prestine private school'd nonce's with perfect lvies and perfect hobbies they've done since they were 4.