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02-01-2009: 2nd January 2009 23:02
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Anonymous user
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I feel like a freak:(
Ok, so every time I have an exam I miss it because I am too physically scared to turn up. I end up getting really ill with nausea, vomiting, diarrhoea all sorts...so I have to see the doctor who will then write a note. The uni haven't called me in yet (although I am a repeat student at uni) though I am scared this time they will. I have had bad experience with exams in the pass and also the pressure is too much as if I fail I can't retake the year like other normal students. However this had led me to feel like a freak compared to my peers who waltz into every exam despite their fears and come out on top. I have created such a bubble of misery here in my room, counting down the days till the exam, having nightmares about failing, making plan after plan for revision, crying myself to sleep...that I have drained myself of all energy and positivity. It's gone on for so long I don't know what to do. As I am studying medicine I am too scared to speak to a member of staff because they'll gain an unfavourable impression of me as I've already had one too many problems and they probably think it's about time I "pulled myself together". I want to see a counsellor but not sure if this will go down on my record. I want to talk to friends but if they find out I've been missing exam after exam through year they might tip of a member of staff. I don't know what to do 
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