[Anonymous]

I don't feel like i physically exist AT ALL. The only part of me that i feel working is my eyes. I can be in a busy town, surrounded by people and not feel like i'm really there and i don't feel like i'm walking even though i am. It's really, really strange. It's worse when i'm around people so i try and exclude myself from everyone, even though that is supposed to make it worse in the long run.

I act really loud at college because i don't feel like i'm really there and at the college party i felt 10 times worse.

I've felt like this for as long as i can remember and i really hate it. (i'm 16) I want to tell someone about how i feel and so mabye in the future i will be able to feel like what it is to be human and not just living in a dream world. Yeah, i have self-harmed before, just to try and feel something.

I emailed the samaritans a while back, but they just seemed to ask question after question without giving me any answers to mine.

I'm too scared to see the councelor at college... i walked past the room today and wanted to slip a note under the door or something asking for help or advice. Stupid i know.

I'm so scared to see my GP. He knows my parents really well and i don't want to tell my parents about how im feeling. It just wouldn't make any difference. Also, apparentely there isn't a cure for it so i don't see the point in troubling him.

I've been planning my journey from college to the doctors, imagining in my mind how i will just go up to the desk and ask for an appoitment. But at the end of the day, i know i won't do it.

I just want to feel like i exist and i don't know what to do.

[Christien]

well you obviously exist

end of


also, the samaritans are basically useless. try talking to a close friend. confide in someone.

[Anonymous]

Oh another thing, i feel dizzy alot.

[freddyy_poo]

i'm sure that even if the GP knows your parents well - if you ask him he will be happy to keep your personal matterss discrete, its part of his job.

[Anonymous]

Originally Posted by Christien

well you obviously exist

end of


also, the samaritans are basically useless. try talking to a close friend. confide in someone.

I actually have told an internet friend and all i got was 'You're well weird ".

[freddyy_poo]

you could ring NHS direct?

[TheFriendlySocialist]

Originally Posted by Anonymous

I don't feel like i physically exist AT ALL. The only part of me that i feel working is my eyes. I can be in a busy town, surrounded by people and not feel like i'm really there and i don't feel like i'm walking even though i am. It's really, really strange. It's worse when i'm around people so i try and exclude myself from everyone, even though that is supposed to make it worse in the long run.

I act really loud at college because i don't feel like i'm really there and at the college party i felt 10 times worse.

I've felt like this for as long as i can remember and i really hate it. (i'm 16) I want to tell someone about how i feel and so mabye in the future i will be able to feel like what it is to be human and not just living in a dream world. Yeah, i have self-harmed before, just to try and feel something.

I emailed the samaritans a while back, but they just seemed to ask question after question without giving me any answers to mine.

I'm too scared to see the councelor at college... i walked past the room today and wanted to slip a note under the door or something asking for help or advice. Stupid i know.

I'm so scared to see my GP. He knows my parents really well and i don't want to tell my parents about how im feeling. It just wouldn't make any difference. Also, apparentely there isn't a cure for it so i don't see the point in troubling him.

I've been planning my journey from college to the doctors, imagining in my mind how i will just go up to the desk and ask for an appoitment. But at the end of the day, i know i won't do it.

I just want to feel like i exist and i don't know what to do.

Try going to see the councillor at your college, and tell him to keep it private. Just try it, ignore the doubts and just go. Even if you have a rubbish conversation and get nowhere, it still won't do you any harm.

If you're more comfortable with your family's GP, even if he's a family friend, note that they have to swear to keep anything you discuss private. If you tell him to keep quiet about it, he will.

Best of luck, and know what's the best thing about being in a pit?
There's nowhere to go but up.

[aaloo]

You can see another GP besides the one you're registered with at the same clinic. I do it all the time cos my actual GP is a **** whereas the GP in the office on his right is wonderful

[Emmaleuk]

change GP?

[Sulli]

you sound like a confused solopsist

i've never heard of anything like this.. maybe you could try talking to someone you trust, you said you wanted to?

[TheFriendlySocialist]

Originally Posted by Anonymous

Oh another thing, i feel dizzy alot.

How are your eating habits? Have you been getting enough sleep? Sorry to ask, but are you a boy or a girl?

[Anonymous]

I understand completely what you mean, I've felt the same way for about the past 6 months. I can't handle it sometimes, when it gets worse I just go and sleep.

[Gesar]

You get feelings like that when you haven't slept in a long while. It's as if you're watching a film from behind your eyes, and you don't have much conscious thought?

When I didn't sleep for 48 hours it got the worse it's ever been, to the point where even pain was 'distant'. I also used to get it after playing video games and focussing far too much on them.

Solution: Take a couple of sleeping pills and have a 12 hour kip, and play fewer video games/get glasses. It'd work for me!

[potentialcollegedropout]

I think I understand how you feel, is it sort of like your watching someone elses life even though its your own?

I've felt like that before, and I've felt dizzy and turned out it was just being over tired and the dizzyness was dehydration. Try getting some good rest and drink alot of fluids and if you still feel like it even when your fully rested up go to the doctors.

I know its hard, i hate going to the doctors because my doctor never seems to want to help, but if your scared of going just to say about how you feel, you could always think of some other reason to go and then you could add how you feel as an after thought. Whether he knows your family or not he can't say nothing, and if he did mention anything like just asking how you are now around your family you could just pass it off anyway.

Don't worry

[Anonymous]

Originally Posted by TheFriendlySocialist

How are your eating habits? Have you been getting enough sleep? Sorry to ask, but are you a boy or a girl?

I eat fine, 3 meals a day and all that. I sleep on average about 8-9 hours a night. I'm a girl and i'm 16.

[Stoney12345]

Originally Posted by Anonymous

I don't feel like i physically exist AT ALL. The only part of me that i feel working is my eyes. I can be in a busy town, surrounded by people and not feel like i'm really there and i don't feel like i'm walking even though i am. It's really, really strange. It's worse when i'm around people so i try and exclude myself from everyone, even though that is supposed to make it worse in the long run.

I act really loud at college because i don't feel like i'm really there and at the college party i felt 10 times worse.

I've felt like this for as long as i can remember and i really hate it. (i'm 16) I want to tell someone about how i feel and so mabye in the future i will be able to feel like what it is to be human and not just living in a dream world. Yeah, i have self-harmed before, just to try and feel something.

I emailed the samaritans a while back, but they just seemed to ask question after question without giving me any answers to mine.

I'm too scared to see the councelor at college... i walked past the room today and wanted to slip a note under the door or something asking for help or advice. Stupid i know.

I'm so scared to see my GP. He knows my parents really well and i don't want to tell my parents about how im feeling. It just wouldn't make any difference. Also, apparentely there isn't a cure for it so i don't see the point in troubling him.

I've been planning my journey from college to the doctors, imagining in my mind how i will just go up to the desk and ask for an appoitment. But at the end of the day, i know i won't do it.

I just want to feel like i exist and i don't know what to do.

It doesn't matter if he knows your parents well he must keep confidentiality except in a very few extreme circumstances. Could you not ask to see a different GP at the same practice, at mine you just get to see whoever is free. Could be easier if you are still worried.

Just a thought.

[terpineol]

Have a damned good sleep (I feel exactly like you described on the way into exams after week long revision benders).

If its still an issue in a few days see your GP.

The confidentiality bag really does exist and work, provided of course you are Gillick competent. Which I would assume you are.

[QuantumTheory]

Isn't that pretty normal though?

Or am I a crazy person now?

[omlette]

Talk to your cousellor before taking it to your GP, although your GP might be able to refer you somewhere for couselling I doubt (s)he'd be able to do much more to help.

[Tinkerbelle ♥]

i have had panic disorder and hand in hand with that, derealisation - look it up, its very similar to depersonalisation. it's not nice but its a recognised condition one that your GP should take seriously. your GP won't tell you family they're not allowed to, patient confidentialty and all that