With GCSEs fast approaching and a heart scare to follow, it was easy for panic to set in. I had to deal wit that, on top of past problems, but basically, a lot was going on all at once and I didn't know how to cope. I couldn't sleep, I focused a lot on my heart palpitations as it was so new to me, and then the worry started to set it. I couldn't breathe half the time and got really worked up, my chest was tight and I constantly worried, and it was seriously affecting my exams.
Then, I finally experienced a full on panic attack at the time I was supposed to board a flight (I have a phobia, which, I do not know where has come from) but I have to say, it is the worst feeling imaginable. I couldn't stop shaking for days, I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep, I had the sweats all day and I couldn't stop crying, it was so bad I couldn't even talk without spilling into tears.
It was really affecting me, and my study, so I had to do something, I was really at my wits end. It was affecting everything I did. So when I was suggested yoga, I was really skeptical, but oh how I was wrong!
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There are many different areas of yoga - I was taking on relaxation yoga, which focuses on relaxation poses, breathing techniques and calming exercises. What also helped me was to take up new hobbies, so that I wasn't thinking about my exams or my heart. I took up archery which requires a lot of focus, and started to volunteer for a local charity, which has immensely boosted my confidence (which had suffered greatly!)
I'm also a huge fan of routine - one slip up and that would really wreck my head and spiral me into panic, so the yoga, with breathing techniques, helps me to refocus, take a step back and do things little by little.
I wish I'd known, that, things got better with time - I thought it would never stop, and although I get a rare palpitation or fret, things have been so much easier, I can now cope a whole lot better, as, even when I wasn't under pressure, everything felt so overwhelming.
It's also not an overnight cure - it took me a long time, and I still suffer from it - but now, others can really see the difference in me, and people comment on it in a good way and it's really nice to know your on the path to a much better life (of not constantly worrying over silly things!) I was so adamant on getting it cleared up in the next week, but, by forcing myself to take small steps at a time, at my own pace, it made me a lot more comfortable and has helped greatly.
I strongly suggest for people to talk to others about their anxiety - it's a different experience for everyone, but knowing when and where to get advice on it really helps, because there are loads of options to help you, and I know there is a stigma attached to mental health, but at the end of the day, your pride should not come before your health. I refused to talk to people because, I did not want them to think I was broken, or to burden them - but I'm not. Panic is just one of the bodies ways to cope with stress but when it gets to a point where it is everyday - it will bring you down.
Remember, it does get better, no matter how bad it seems.
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