Feel like I'm at the end of my tether with life, uni, everything...

I was really depressed at university. Mainly because my home life was crap. I thought uni would help me escape problems at home, but no I just took them with me.

Have you tried getting a job at university? That's one thing I wish I'd done.

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Or do what I do and remember that at the end of the day you're going through all this **** to get a decent degree. This uni stuff is only temporary. You're half way there already, might as well work your face off to make this whole experience worth it.

I don't know what I expect by posting this thread, I already know where my problems lie I just...feel..meh.

Tldr; I've had a difficult start to my second year, was feeling better but with unexpected problems, assignment deadlines looming, feeling like friends don't have time for me and a general sense of being ****ing incapable of doing my degree, I'm really dreading the idea of these last few weeks before xmas...

Ever since I got back to uni for my second year, I've felt unsettled, even depressed at points. It's like now the novelty's worn off, all the issues I've been avoiding for the past however many years have started coming to light.
I've started seeing a counsellor and, after she advised me to, I went to see the uni doctor and he gave me one of those questionnaires and derived from that I had mild depression but there wasn't a lot to be done.
After I had a rough few days, I felt a lot better the next fortnight. I was getting on with assignments, had things to look forward to etc. But the last few days have been very stressful with problems with my car leading to me not getting any work done, plus I've had no energy this week - probably a combination of the extreme cold, PMS (yeah, I always get tired but not usually this tired) and stress/feeling low.

As the deadlines have got closer I've felt less together because I really need to pull 'the cat out of the bag' with these essays and make them really good but I feel like, no matter how hard I try, I can't quite get there and it's making it hard to even keep trying.
I came home this weekend for a break and because I'd already planned to but now, thinking of going back tomorrow - after being disappointed by friends over the weekend and facing the dreary prospect of going back and having to really work my ass off before christmas, I literally am dreading it. I just am having real difficulty summoning up that 'gusto' I usually make use of just to get myself working hard and in the right mindset.

I'm well aware this is an essay without real purpose, thanks if you did read it, I guess I just needed a rant really...

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