I've only ever slept with one guy, mainly because I attract two distinct types of guys - confident but serious geeky guys who are successful and have integrity and I could probably end up with one day when I'm sensible, but just don't feel the passion to date right now, and very good-looking, very very arrogant guys who consider themselves 'lads' and see women as conquests - but I'm more attracted to these men! So unsurprisingly, apart from a relatively successful two year relationship with someone unlike either of the above types, my love life hasn't been a great success.
Why I only attract men like that (and its usually the second kind) is a whole other issue, but I think the reason I haven't slept with any of them is their attitude to women. I would be quite open to the idea of casual sex if it was respectful and I felt in control. But I don't know if that's ever really possible. I don't want to sound like a control freak, when I am actually dating people I am quite balanced and laid-back, but I absolutely hate the idea of a guy bragging to his friends about having 'had' me. I guess other girls don't have this attitude to one night stands or they wouldn't have them - maybe they (some of you on here?) don't analyse as much as me, or have been less exposed to horrible 'laddish' men?
I have begun dealing with this by having attempted one night stands where I have the power eg I will go back to a guy's place and make out, let him give me one or two orgasms but not touch him, and then tell him I don't want to go any further and leave. I don't think this is unfair because I am kind of lagging behind the man in all of this, as soon as he invites me back to his I say "I'm not comfortable with casual sex" etc etc, and if he thinks he can change my mind he will learn the hard way (heh) that he can't. And this isn't entirely premeditated - I just go along with things to a point where I don't feel comfortable.
Recently I had the above situation - a particularly fun version - with a guy at my uni, and he is keen to keep seeing me on a casual basis. He has an enormous reputation in my social circle and I'm kind of put off by that. It is pretty extreme, the numbers and stories about him. But at least it seems like he has a really great attitude to women & sex than the other 'lads' I've been seeing - he genuinely loves pleasuring women and sees them as equals sexually. So should I keep seeing him/sleep with him? Or if I feel so worked up about it anyway, maybe casual sex isn't right for me? I do think it would be fun though. I need some advice!
Girls, please tell me about your casual sex experiences and if it's all worked out for you. I'd appreciate male thoughts too if you've had similar experiences, and especially if you are a guy who has one night stands but isn't a d!ck about it.