self explanatory really, what is says above.
Basically i was having an argument with my one0eyar younger sister whos a major suck up over something, my mum was there at the same time so as per usual she had to get involved on my sister's side against me, it was a bit physically angry in that sense but started by her. About ten minutes later my dad was due to be back and all this **** had just about blown over for the time being, though my sister was still urging my mother to snitch. So what does my mother do, she KNOWS my father can be violent towards me (not towarsds my sister for some stupid reason; onl;y yesterday i came in at 10.30pm after being out for the whole day, my mum opened the door and he shoved me clean out the door onto the concrete path) but starts exagerrating the 'huge fuss i'd been making' and what i'd done to my 'poor sister' missing out the other half the proceedings of course.
I sort of tried to block myself out in my room, as hes beaten me before but without warning he barged in, i was trying to brace myself for supposedly being hit but he starts pulling at my hair (pretty long, about 2/3rds way down to my waist having grown it for months now) and hacking it off in clumps with kitchen scissors.
Just as i was aware what was going on i just completely freaked out started panicking but it was too late, he just walked out clutching this massive clump of my hair which is now a rough tuft basicallly.
And basiclaly thats it; i'm just in complete shock, i had no idea what psycjhopathic **** he was gonna do now, i feel like i can't wear anything go out in public do anything. my college are so gonna be asking awkward questions as is my work (line of work where you have to look fairly xconventionally well presented) and i have a uni intevriew on monday feel like i cant face any of this ****. I can't look in the mirror, just wnat to cry like the only thing i LIKED about my appearance at all, that even my parents would compliment me on is my hair, it wa salways long and nice and i dont even have that small comfort any more i just seriously dont know what to do.
Thats another thing, my parents have said themselves and know that i have lopw self esteem aso why the **** they do this which is just gonna make me extremely depressed aqnd unable to literally get up to do anything is bgeyondm me. It was completely uncalled for and on the wider scale i dont know what sdo do, bween thinking about moving out for a while now but my pay is **** and i'm completekly skint.
Sorry for the long post, but basically i feel kinda suicidal and shovcked and wtfd i need tlo get out of here right now, just dont know what to do. So yeah csorry fpr the incoherence.