What if you are an awful person?

Anon, I've told you in your compulsive lying thread, you are not a bad person , you are a product of things you have gone through.

Anon, I've told you in your compulsive lying thread, you are not a bad person , you are a product of things you have gone through.

GO AND READ ALL I TOLD YOU TO READ!, It's all linked once you realise the reason for your insecurities and behaviour you will be set free.

Only you can give yourself freedom from the prison you built yourself.

I'm sorry I don't know what you're talking about
I haven't made another thread.

This isn't the same guy.

Just thought they were the same person because they had the same number of posts and were both anonymous.

I think I am becoming a worse and worse person

Whereas I feel like I used to be happy, cheerful, helpful and kind - now I am so much more irritable and cruel, and annoying. Unlikeable.

How can you tell if your friends or family like you? It seems like I regret every second thing I say or do, because it was something mean, or selfish, or stupid. I've come home from uni for christmas and it's like I don't fit in any more. I feel like I'm not the "old me" like my family must miss that person. Instead they have someone who is grumpy and rude.

It's so insidious, I don't know when this change happened. The more I think about myself the more intolerable I seem. I try to be a nice person but it's like it doesn't come naturally anymore, like I'm pretending. I feel like there is something bad in me that I can't get rid of.
I can't be myself when I am trying so hard to not be that bad bit, it's like I have no personality to me at all. So it's like a horrible choice between being likeable, and being myself

It's not normal to think that way is it? It's crazy but sometimes it feels as though even the cat can see through me. Like he doesn't like me. But he's a cat. That doesn't make sense.

Christmas day has been a good day, though. I was quite "good", people liked my presents, I tried really hard to compliment everyone and be very helpful and friendly and I didn't do/say anything too bad. But so many days nowadays I feel like a horrible person.

Has anyone felt this way? Can someone explain it, or help me be more nice? Can you become more horrible if you are stressed or something?

anonymous always have the same number of posts lol

Sorry I thought you were the same person because you both had the same number of posts and had both made accounts in November 1999, sorry.

You're not a horrible person at all , this may be a case of 'you think everyone hates you but you really just hate yourself'

I really dont see how someone can hate themselves. It's obviously making this person upset what other people think of him/her which is what making them upset.

It's a concept I learnt whilst volunteering with troubled children, it is very possible for someone to hate themselves, google it. When you meet people who say things like 'people don't like me' 'everyone thinks I'm mean' etc it's often a reflection of how they feel about themselves and they begin to feel everyone else see's them in the same light.

i understand the concept of people hating themselves and that it's possible. I just dont understand how they can get to that stage, I could never imagine hating myself for the actions of others. (in this case people not liking this person). For example i'm always told that i'm vein and an arrogant twt, but i never take it personally, i just laugh it off because it's not in me to take anything seriously. Obviously everyone is upset at one stage or another, but i'v never known anyone to constantly hate themselves for a long period of time, of course it could just be something that this person is going through for a short period of time and will probably go away..

I think you underestimate the severity of some psychological disorders.