Need to get my messed up life in order

You're still a 'teenager' dude & judging by your 'accent' you're hitting quite a few years above your age.

Give yourself the space to figure things out. You're already earning 2.2K too much; can you switch to part-time & spend few more hours on yourself?

If it makes you feel better, I've been depressed for a while and I really messed up my A Levels too, but at least you have a job . I dunno, maybe you could come to TSR's Depression Society to chat with others who also feel down and could offer some advice?

You've admitted there is a problem, and that's a great step to take in itself. Even more, you do want to change- so the willpower to do so shouldn't be a problem

One thing that would help you out I think is to establish what you want- I mean what you REALLY want, both short term and long term out of your life. Don't just dream about it- write it down. It sounds silly I know, but by doing this you are re-enforcing it in your own mind...it's no longer just a thought but a material thing. I mean it's new year's eve in a couple of days...so spend these next two days figuring out precisely what you want out of each area of your life: financially, relationship wise, career, health.
This way you'll have something to work towards and regain that feeling of purpose and will find it easier to stop being "lazy".

If the depression is getting in the way of you being able to do things- speak to someone. Doctor, friend, family...a word of warning is that friends and family won't always understand so it's best you just have a chat with your gp. Or find your own way of dealing with it that is not self-destructive (i.e. NOT drinking/gambling). Sport? Keep a diary?

I hope you get through this alright, feel free to pm me if you want, I don't mind helping in any way I can.

You need direction. What is it you aspire to achieve, extracting yourself away from your current mentality when you answer.

Right.

Are you wanting to go to Uni? If so , look into enrolling into a college to do A Levels again, and switch your job to part time if possible.
Gambling/Alcoholism - best bet is to go to your doctors. They have groups you can go to/counselling etc.

Do you have an aim in life?Because to me it seems like you feel kind of this is your limit. Holding down a full time job and earning money. Is there any opportunity for progress? Do you have a girlfriend you could be potentially moving in with? Any interests/hobbies?

No opportunity for progress within this field that I'm interested in. It's a professional field but it was an iterim solution for me, not a field I want to be investing my entire self into. Im drawn to the extremities of public service (Fire, Army, Police, Coastguard etc)

Be logical. You don't sound unintelligent. Create your path and walk on it. Apply for a Public Services course for 11/12.

Am I qualifed enough or do I have to pay for that?

Is a 16 year old school leaver qualified? Answer that question and you'll have the answer for your question

You may, but that's a problem you will overcome once you get to it. Although, you do need some councilling to solve your infatuation with gambling, but even that is out there, you just have to do some research or be referred to a councilor by a GP.

You understand I do have a massive dilema of disclosing anything to anyone formally. Application to my aspirational careers are dependent on passing a full medical. I can't really afford to have "Depression", "Alcohol dependency" or "Gambling addiction" blemishing that record.

This is a problem I feel I'm best overcoming, informally.

To be honest mate, your 19 and you like drinking and gambling, your not the only one. so do I, so do most of my mates, it's a not a bad thing in moderation.

Do you drink alone or just go out a lot?

The bit you said about needing to do all or nothing to make up for your past, with regards to what? Poker, work, life?

Hey,

I'm 19, male.

I'm seriously messed up right now, and I'd appreciate any advice you can give me in context.

I work full time at the moment, never went to uni. I earn a fair sum for my age, but nothing great (Certainly for the effort) but I get a good CV citation to say the least (I don't work in a shop or behind a bar, it's a very responsible job).

I messed my A-Levels up. I did quite well at GCSE (2A's 6B's and 2C's), but ended up with an C and an E in A-Level despite being on track for an A, B and a D at AS level. I was never an acedemic, but have significant extra-curricular achivments that would be highly regarded in any professional field. I am capable of quite a lot, but I'm lazy, destitute and depressed right now, and I have been for a long time.

I'm completely unmotivated, I feel I've failed and I'm wraped up in drink and gambling right now. It's higher than it's ever been the last month, but on average I drink about 160 units of alcohol a week.

I gamble a lot too, because I earn a full time wage with little overheads it's easy to justify but it all adds up and it deeply saddens me. I only play online poker, and I'm very good at it (Give me £50 and I'm likely to treble it within the hour) but I am addicted to the thrill and the tilt - I move up the stakes - I then loose, chase my losses by depositing more, and the cycle repeats. In the two years I've played I've lost about £2.2k.

I'm a wreck, I still have my job, but I've been off a lot recently due to proxy depression (I'm depressed, but made up an alternative excuse as to why I cant turn up) the last month.

I was always expected, and expected myself to be somthing, I am capable - but I chronically push my luck too much. I feel like I MUST do something extreme, all or nothing perhaps - to regain what I have lost these last few years. I would happily risk my life for a bit of stability.

I'm not suicidal, but I'm desperate.

Become an escort, you'll get PAID for SEX

Unfortunately I lack the STD's for that position. I only got an inconclusive in crabs, and failed all the others.