Hey (short version is at the end)
first of all please dont hate me for what im about to say- you really cant understand how stressful it is unless you have been in the same situation.
Im in my 20's and I have been with my boyfriend for a few years now. The problem is I am just not physically attracted to him anymore- and to be honest I never really was. We had been friends for a while when he asked me out and i thought why not give it a go. So i went out with him, and it took a while but attraction came to me. However, it was never a huge amount of attraction and didnt really last long.
Now the past 6 months- a year i have just lost all attraction. We dont do anything sexual anymore. The idea of it makes me sick. I can look forward to seeing him (we are long distance) but then when he touches me i just coil away and hate it.
This is really really getting me down, because his personality is PERFECT. We are so perfect together in every other way. I just really want to be attracted to him.
Its really getting me down, because i know this lack of sex life is getting both of us down, but i cant physically bring myself to do anything with him.
I thought at first it could be my depression affecting my sex drive, however recently i have find myself looking (NOT touching) at other men. I dont want to feel like i have to look at other men. I just want to be attracted to my boyfriend.
Any advice would really really be appreciated.
Shorter version: I love my boyfriend in every way but am not physically or sexually attracted to him but cant bring myself to leave.