I was taught to lie from a very young age. There were some experiences where my mother told me to lie for her multiple times as a child.
I believe this is why I have this compulsion to lie about everything.
You have to understand that I've become very good at deception/cheating that it is second nature to me now. And I even see it as a kind of challenge that I just cannot refuse.
Here is what I lie about:
1. UCAS - I lied about my grades, past education history. My personal statement was completely fabricated. I've had interviews, but I'm very good at pretending (as I've been lying/ leading double lives for so long).
Guess what, UCAS tries to scare you that they can find out the real information, but they cannot. If they had easy access to such information, they wouldn't need us to fill it in anyway.
2. Lie to my friends - I'm ashamed of my background so I lie and make people think I come from a privileged family. They would never suspect me because I'm not obvious and I've become good at it.
3. My voice - My accent is faked. I'm from an area that has a regional accent but I completely turn it off and put on a fake accent constantly. Again, it has become second nature (of course I cannot use it when around my family).
4. Exams - I cheat in almost all my exams. I averaged 90% in AS levels without cheating, but I just could not resist the challenge of cheating. So I put together many schemes to cheat in my A2's. I was never found out. You would not believe how complex some of these cheating schemes were...
5. Extra time in exams - I lie about having some learning difficulties. This way I can get extra time in exams and other such perks. I had to lie and fake to my doctor in order to get this. But this was quite simple to do.
6. General lies - I even lie when there is no need to. Recently my friend asked me what my UMS score was for a subject. In reality it was 92/100 but I told her that it was 93/100. I'm beginning to think this is a real problem. I can't help but just lie....!?
I don't "cheat" on boyfriends/girlfriends etc though. It is a line that I'd never cross.
The point of this post is I don't know if I should carry on with this lying behaviour. It has done me well, in the sense that I have offers from some of the top universities and I'm very good at not being found out.
What do you think?