Eating Disorders and Support

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my doctor has reffered me as an urgent case to an eating disorder specialist, and ive arranged for her to come to my house for an hour tomorrow. im scared and dont know what to expect or what she is going to do. I hate admitting it but i am anorexic, but theres nothing i can do about it but at least my doctor has got involved i guess, even if i dont see it as a good thing. Can anyone tell me what to expect from the specialist that is visiting and what will happen? please keep anonymous

Reply 101

Anonymous #7

My family KEEPS going on about ''are you eating properly?'' and I hear my parents discuss/worry about what im having for dinner.

I'm 7 stone and 5'3/5'4 - is that bad? I do have a probelm with food. Im aware of it and sometimes when I really feel bad i'll puke up the food. normally i just skipped breakfast lunch and have dinner with no desert.

Now i feel so ugly, i just dont know what to do............Its just so hard (like today, on my lunch break I was scared to eat a bag of crisps! i just couldnt even pick them up it freaked me out!)

advise plz to get ppl off my back and am i reeeallly that underweight, im not dying/in death bed. I still lead a normal life.

L x

Reply 102

username163092

Anonymous

How are you now?

Just posting to say that this is a really good idea, TSR seems to have a lot of people with eating disorders. I'm in recovery from EDNOS at the moment.

Reply 103

Anonymous #15

Urm, i dont know wat to do i'm lost... i think i have pica... but see the thing is i dont swallow what i put in my mouth which tends to be dust or dead skin so does it still class ad pica
and why have i got it, i look at the symptoms and general reasons and it talks about kids frm this age and that it has to do with mental problems and .....
its getting really fustrating cause it wont matter wat location the dust is in... i can garuntee there is almost none left for more than a day in my house... i wanna go see a GP but how wud they treat me effectively without involving my mum.
its getting really emotional cause it doesnt matter how much ppl i see have it it still makes me feel weird and lonely and its rare that i tell ppl that knw me but the ones i have dont know how to deal with it or take it as a joke when i know there can be serious consequences if i continue.... its just gonna get worse =[

Reply 104

eurasianfeline

steffi.alexa

How are you now?
TSR seems to have a lot of people with eating disorders. I'm in recovery from EDNOS at the moment.

It's really sad but it's true. Apart from the more extreme severe cases of EDs, there are so many people who struggle with EDs silently without anyone ever noticing because most of us are so good at hiding it.

It's been years since I started this thread and I still sometimes get emails from people from TSR about this. In fact I just got an email, which made me curious and I was surprised this thread is still going. In one way I'm glad, on the other hand it's sad to read some of the posts :frown:

7 years of EDs now and I'm still in recovery. I'm much better, but come exam times and it might be a different story.

Reply 105

username163092

eurasianfeline

7 years of EDs now and I'm still in recovery. I'm much better, but come exam times and it might be a different story.

It seems every 2 months, someone I know tells me they've been diagnosed, it's insane! Yeah, on one noticed when I was really quite underweight, but now if I lose anything, people notice, which is good. I guess that's because I try to be so open about the fact that I'm in recovery (which also means that people know they can talk to me about their own problems).

It's a shame that EDs affect so many people and that so few people actually know what they are. Although it is eating disorders awareness week at the end of February, so that's changing in my school! I guess the good thing about the posts here, even if horrible to read, is that the poster has realised that something's not right, which is the first thing they have to do before they can get better.

:hugs:

Exams might make it worse, but if you've got this far, you can do it. I didn't think I'd make it through January A2 exams, but I've actually done way better than I ever expected, the worry that I'd relapse was more than any ED thoughts I had. Good luck with your exams and getting through them.

Reply 106

Yeeepy

I'm a reciovering anorexic and had to leave uni once to be hospitalised. I'm starting uni again in Sept but i now have loads of support. Starving yourself isn't the hard part it's sorting out the reasons behind the eating disorder. To look at me now you would never know i was in hospital for 10 months but i still struggle with food and the underlining reasons. It's a very long and hard recovery but i'm determined to beat this and get on with my life. x x

Reply 107

Anonymous #16

Someone please help

I'm 5ft 1 and 7.8 stone. Last year I was anorexic and 4.5. It seems like since being in recovery my metabolism has slowed right down, I eat less than most people but put on more weight (or it shows more because I'm short) and after a year I still have the voice in my head telling me I am fat and useless and it makes me not want to socialise or be around other people.

I want to lose weight but I can't. I don't know why. I think being on the pill makes it worse but I have to stay on for now because it might help get my periods back.

I'm starting uni on saturday and half of me is really excited but half of me wants to die because I think I'm too fat and disgusting to let anyone see me. I don't know how I'm going to get through freshers week. I'm stick of this controlling my life, I want to stop caring about calories and ******** and I want to be slim and happy but I think I'll die before that happens.

I don't know what to do

Reply 108

amitai

Original post by Anonymous

just seen this thread....how are you now?...

Reply 109

Anonymous #17

Sorry if this has been covered, but does what support's given depend on where you live? I'm over 18, BMI like 14.3, binge and vomit 10s of thousands of cals most days, GP is aware, bloods can be screwy, parents despairing but I've just been 'rejected' (again) from the specialist ED services.

Reply 110

amitai

Original post by Anonymous

where do you live exactly? and how long has it been going on like this?
It shouldn't anyways... :frown:

Reply 111

Anonymous #17

Original post by amitai

where do you live exactly? and how long has it been going on like this?
It shouldn't anyways... :frown:

Why shouldn't it? Live SE and that's all I'll say. It's been going on... tooo long, in my eyes! I'm not quite sure how to answer your Q though. Anyway, thanks for responding and I wish you the best.

Reply 112

Anonymous #18

Original post by Anonymous

Why shouldn't it? Live SE and that's all I'll say. It's been going on... tooo long, in my eyes! I'm not quite sure how to answer your Q though. Anyway, thanks for responding and I wish you the best.

SE? (Sorry this reply's so late, I just found this this thread and although its not relatively as long as between some of the other posts, hope your ok?)

SE there are a fair few specialist units though which is why i'm so surprised, knowing this unofrtunately from expeience! I was in the child service so they seemed all to keen to put me in hospital but know for a fact lots of people get referred to the adult NHS one as part or st george's in London, and depending who your NHS trust are contracted to I know people who have been it treatment in the private Rhodes Farm/Priory/Capio clinics on the NHS.
Im pretty sure yopu want to get better but perhaps more so on the adult programmes you have to fight for spaces/funding, so show you really want to get better to your psychiatrist/consultant, get your parents to back up if need be if you really aren't coping at home.
If your physical observations (blood tests, pulse, BP etc) are unstable then they'll almost definitely want to admit you to a general ward at least but they're apparently so much worse than the specialist ones.
Anyways I hope this has been of some help and that things at least have not got any worse for you, maybe even that you've got that place in specialist treatment now! So many people do try and avoid going into hospital so its positive that your actively seeking professional help, its nota pelasant experience by all means but will focus your time energy and that of expert doctors on the priority of getting you healthier instead of worrying about academia and the like.

Reply 113

ChristinaEmily

I been anorexic for a while now, and my hair's been falling out for months, which I'm really worried about. Once I recover, will it ever go back to being as thick as it used to be? Also, will my metabolism go back to being normal? Or will it stay slow for life? I'm so, so scared...

Reply 114

Anonymous #19

I'm so happy to read that binge eating/compulsive eating is actually taken seriously as an eating disorder. I'm overweight because I binge (and I really can binge - think 3000+ calories in a sitting, it's disgusting) when sad, instead of self-harming which I used to do. And this sounds awful, but my area has really good anorexia support, so I've tried going to the other extreme so that people will take me seriously, but... I can't do it. And people have a go at me for it. I actually have a friend with diagnosed anorexia and bulimia who spends half her life going on at me about how superior she is because she's got anorexia and bulimia (I realise that not all people suffering from EDs are like this, it's just that she is!) and how I don't have an eating problem, I'm just greedy, and... it doesn't help. It doesn't help at all.

I'm not sure where this is going except that I've never told anyone this and I thought an anon post on TSR was the best place to start. :rolleyes:

Everyone thinks I'm just fat. It's nice to know that it's actually recognised as a problem, because it scares me sometimes.

Also, please, please don't de-anon. I know people on here.

Reply 115

blinkbelle

Original post by ChristinaEmily

Hey. I think it depends on the person but I found my hair grew back (but not much fell out for me) and my metabolism is fine if not a little fast. :hugs:

hope this helps.xx

Reply 116

Anonymous #13

My aim when it comes to food is just to develop a healthy relationship with it! I hate myself for not being able to have one and what my behaviour does to the people who love me.

It just seems I can never just think "i'll eat when i'm hungry" - it's either total starvation or binging with the odd purge and this just isn't healthy. My weight fluctuates from just end 8s to 9.5s atm which at least isn't unhealthy but I want to look how I should if I just ate normally and didn't over/under eat.

Sorry, just in a bit of a self loathe / need to deal with this mood and I saw this thread.

Has anyone got any good thought processes they've been taught to think that have helped them see food in a better light?

Reply 117

Anonymous #13

Original post by Anonymous

(just to add: the 8s-9.5s is obvs when i'm over eating not when i'm under eating, I thought once i'd managed to eat without feeling guilty i'd be okay but the opposite has happened and now i'm stuck once again in that self loathing cycle)

Reply 118

blinkbelle

Original post by Anonymous

I tried to start to see my body as a machine that needed fuel to be able to function. I think the real turning point for me in my recovery was when I started exercising 3 times a week and forcing myself to eat a proper meal for breakfast, lunch and tea. Even if I wasn't hungry. 3-4 years on and I still do this because I'm scared what will happen if I skip a meal. Obviously that's not 'normal' but I think it's as normal as you can hope for after suffering with an ED. Hope this helps!xx

Reply 119

KatPuss

I think I may have an eating disorder. I eat an average of 850kcals per day, including alcohol, and exercise quite a lot. I've gone from being 12.5 stone (at 5"4) to just below 8 and all I can think of is keeping going as much as I can. Food and calories have come to completely rule my life. I was a self-harmer for years but where that doesn't make me feel better anymore, losing weight does.

I've booked an appointment with my uni counsellor but the soonest they can see me is in about 3 weeks. I don't know what to do, I feel a bit desperate. I'm getting increasingly bad mood swings/depression, and physically feel weak and faint. It's making writing my dissertation extremely difficult. Would booking an appointment with my doctor be of any use?