20 tomorrow, don't see how things could get worse right now.

I'm 20 tomorrow. I'm spending tonight in tears, locked in my bedroom with my possessions in bags at the door (my mother wants me to leave in the morning). I have one 'sort-of' friend, no boyfriend, and no idea what to do with my life.
No-one cares, and I can't explain how much that hurts.

I've only got one friend. We just got back from holiday where I enjoyed socialising, trying new things, and spending a lot of time walking around the beautiful city. She spent half the time with a sad look in her eyes complaining that a week was seeming too long because she missed TV, facebook, and her boyfriend.

My retail job sucks. People who have worked 30-odd years say they have never worked somewhere that gives it's employees so little respect.

Haven't had a relationship. Thankfully still have at least enough respect for myself to hold out for someone not after a ONS.

I spent an hour or two researching clubs in my area/jobs/etc. It's sad enough that I have to do this, but I wanted to go into my birthday knowing I had a plan for a positive future. Sadly it didn't really help. Then my mother suddenly decided she wanted to use the laptop, but since I don't want her knowing I've had to resort to this I asked for five extra minutes (to delete the history,etc). She went mental, we argued and well now all my belongings are packed in binbags. Just as well, I can't cope with the constant rows she causes over nothing.

I feel like I'm missing out on life. All I've ever wanted is a nice group of reliable friends, a loving boyfriend, and a job that I don't hate that gives me enough money to live on. That's hardly much to ask, is it? I mean I'ld enjoy traveling around Europe for abit but..... well I know this sounds pathetic, but that wouldn't make me as happy as feeling loved. I'm not just talking romantically loved, but even just as a person and as a friend too.

Well......do something about it.
Sitting on a forum, looking for sympathy aint gonna help your case.

Sorry if your life sucks at the moment, but here's hoping a new decade means new great change .

I feel quite similar to you at times as well. At least you do have a job though, even if it is a sucky one. But I suppose you can keep looking for a new one in the meantime. What sort of retail company are you working for by the way? I was thinking of working in retail myself, but I worry when people say things like that

Are you Asian?

I always wanted to be a man

It's gone midnight, which means...

Happy Birthday!

OP, look for a new job in the jobcentre. Also, what qualifications do you have? If you haven't been to university, maybe look into it?

I hope so too! Although 'new decade' makes me feel dead old

I work for a well known large high-street fashion store. It's terrible, the managers are bitchy/incompetent/treat the staff like dirt. Poorly paid, working hours are changed constantly, and in general it is just badly run. However many people I know have left and gone onto other retail stores which they love. Don't let what people say put you off, you have to experience it yourself. I love working with customers, and I think that's definately the best part of retail, however I wouldn't recommend anyone to do it as a life long job.

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Ah, k. Was just curious. I must say, the way that you're handling this is admirable. I would probably be too depressed to even make a thread on TSR.

Happy birthday! I hope that you sort things out and that things improve.