I'm not sure if I'm depressed :S

Hi everyone,

so basically I've been through taugh times recently and I thought I had depression.
But the thing is: each time I read the symptoms, there is always one that doesn't fit: Actually in my case it's the opposite.

It's "you prefere to be alone" or any variant of it.

What is happening with me is pretty much the oposite, I fear being alone.
I mean before a few months I was absolutely fine with being alone, but now I try to occupy my mind as much as I can which means that when I have to be alone, ... well it's not great. A bit as if I was scared of being alone and start thinking about stuff and depression etc.

PS. btw, I don't have suicidal thoughts (just in case that's what you may think).

Edit: on this list for example, the bolded one is the only one that really doesn't apply, and some others aren't exactly the case but sometimes they are ...

Do you feel downhearted, blue and sad?
Do you feel worse in the morning?
Do you have crying spells, or feel like it?
Do you have trouble falling asleep, or sleeping through the night?
Is your appetite poor?
Are you losing weight without trying?
Do you feel unattractive and unlovable?
Do you prefer to be alone?
Do you feel fearful?
Are you often tired and irritable?
Is it an effort to do the things you used to do?
Are you restless and unable to keep still?
Do you feel hopeless about the future?
Do you find it difficult to make decisions?
Do you feel less enjoyment from activities that once gave you pleasure?

Where did you get that list from?

If you think that there's a chance that you are, go see your doctor. They're there to help you and if you can identify with most of the list, you would hardly be wasting their time.

Does it matter if you fit all the symptoms? Technically you can't/shouldn't diagnose yourself anyway and having a label doesn't always help. It doesn't matter if you fit a list or not, are you happy, or content, or sad, etc? If not the first or second try and think up ways to change that, if you struggle maybe try a visit to your GP or somebody if you feel its really a problem

You don't have to meet every criterion for depression to actually have depression, just a number of them. (Some are contradictory - for example, eating too much can be a symptom, as can be eating too little. Obviously you couldn't do both of these ) It's worth seeing a doctor.

Sorry to hear you're feeling bad
You don't have to fulfil all the questions, they're just common symptoms; if you have a few of them it may mean you have depression.
I had mild depression a few months ago and wouldn't have fulfilled all those questions, just some. I also actually feared being left on my own; i used to hate it when my family all went out because i'd worry that i'd panic or that my bad thoughts would make me feel awful.

I'd go to the doctor and discuss how you've been feeling. They'll probably ask a lot of questions or give you a questionaire to do and I know it'll be hard but try and be honest, cos that way you've got the best chance of getting help that's suited to you.
If you've had a tough time, it's perfectly natural to have some form of depression, good luck and hope you get it sorted

I've just answered yes to nearly all of them, but never thought of myself as being depressed it depends how long you've been feeling this way, as im sure everyone goes through small depressed phases now and then
sorry to hear you've been feeling down though, if you are feeling lonely I'd see a local councellor to just get all your feelings off your chest, and be around your friends as much as possible! good luck

I don't know why I haven't seen one yet. Maybe I feel that if I keep pretending that I'm absolutely fine I will be ...
Gosh I just want to wake up and be my exact self a few months earlier. I'd do anything for that. I wish the last few months never happened and that I'll open my eyes in the morning and all the last months would just be in that single dream-nightmare and that's it (I think I sometimes secretly dream/hope it's the case).

Well, I guess if someone is reading this, they'll think I'm just pathetic

If your not sure then your not depressed. Depression is obvious in 99% of cases. If you can not know about it then it is hugely unlikely that it's depression.