Besides the fact I really like my bestfriend I am becoming a moany bitch. I complain about everything he does, I just complain! I become jealous when he goes out with other females and friends it just upsets me that he finds the time to spend time with them and not me.
In all honesty this guy is not worthy to be called my bestfriend. He is never ever ever there for me, didn't come to my birthday dinner even though he lives 10 minutes away his excuse was we have exams but was at another girls birthday dinner the following week. He never ever ever ever calls me, his excuse 'Oh I don't have credit' ok now he has got a blackberry with blackberry messenger and never ever messages me unless I message him. And I always have to make the conversation and I mean I go to extra length to make conversation with this guy. WTF! We never see each other, he never calls me ever.
I buy him shoes for his birthday, £50 worth, it was reduced from £120 and he gets me some ****ty book from waterstone and a saled item from john lewis and presents it to me. OK I might sound ungrateful but the things I get this guy he could have put more effort into his present. And I had to lie and say I liked it! I hated it!
Nonetheless, he told me I was the love of his life, he doesn't want me out of his life, yet doesn't think we can be more than friends, yet says he doesn't use the word love loosely. I'm so confused.
All my friends are self-centred they only call me if they need help or want to talk about themselves --> the latter being 97% of the time. I really have so much stress so much medical problems, just finished counselling because I've been suicidal but LOOL GUESS WHAT NOT A SINGLE HUMAN BEING HAS NOTICED!
Ok. No sympathy is wanted here, I'm sure I wouldn't get it! But seriously I should cut off my so called bestfriend right?