Al the support, everyone, thank you so much - I am touched, and bolstered
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*likes*
- I agree! *kicks ED and knocks back bedtime m!lk* XXX
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Tough afternoon today. Had a session with my named nurse for the day. First he INSISTED on bringing up (no pun intended) my stomach issues. Basically, the sphincter muscle at the top of my stomach is practically non-existent, and my stomach is used to rejecting all food I put into it, until it's passed through to the small intestine. I have delayed gastric emptying so this can easily go on for 4 hours after my main meal at lunch
. It basically tries to regurgitate everything I eat, and I have to swallow it down. It's EMBARRASSING as HELL and I HATE it, I HATE it, I can't help it and I deal with it as best I can, I DON'T need telling how unpleasant it is and how it'll be ruining my teeth and my oesophagus and give me bad breath. I KNOW. PLEASE DON'T MAKE ME FEEL WORSE. And THEN he started talking about my MP increase. He said I'd increased very quickly and it wasn't really that good as I'm on bedrest/wheelchair and so
I'm just going to be gaining fat and no muscle. (bearing in mind, the last increase I was going to have to have on Monday anyway, I just asked to have it a few days sooner...) This REALLY REALLY BOTHERED ME. The stomach crap stuff made me feel like curling under a rock and rotting. And OBVIOUSLY I was a GREEDY FAT COW for having asked for the increase sooner to get it over with. Spent most of afternoon crying, after that.
Still ate my tea.
Chatted to a couple of other patients this eve on the balcony, the general consensus is that this member of staff is basically on a power trip - that was my initial impression of him when I came here, actually. I'm feeling a little better now.
Roll on the weekend!