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Original post by Destroyviruses
Hi Squiff! I'm sorry about yesterday! I didn't even ask if you'd done the tests! Its not your fault the paper got wet ,phlebotomists are nice! The bloodtest will help you know your enemy! "keep your friends close,enemies closer" haha!
I love your new proactive attitude! Welldone! You're being totally super!
I have that memory problems too, once I went to the doc to tell her about my memory problems but I couldnt remember any examples of the problems it was causing me so I was giggling because I found it really funny! But the doc didnt take me seriously (understandably as I was giggling and couldnt think of problems) and told me its a behavioural thing and that I just need to focus! I was annoyed but I'll try again next time !
For you though, writing a big long list of problems beforehand is very useful ,as they occur,then you can just hand it to the doc to read!
Have a good day! Hopefully We'll be able to talk later! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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I love your new proactive attitude! Welldone! You're being totally super!
I have that memory problems too, once I went to the doc to tell her about my memory problems but I couldnt remember any examples of the problems it was causing me so I was giggling because I found it really funny! But the doc didnt take me seriously (understandably as I was giggling and couldnt think of problems) and told me its a behavioural thing and that I just need to focus! I was annoyed but I'll try again next time !
For you though, writing a big long list of problems beforehand is very useful ,as they occur,then you can just hand it to the doc to read!
Have a good day! Hopefully We'll be able to talk later! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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nah haven't had the tests yet, if i do them it'll be later in the month anyway.
today has been ****, i won't go into it but its just been horrible and i feel like i've been stabbed in the chest and like i don't want to live anymore. i literally can't think right now my heads just completely blank, i don't know what i want or what to think i'm so confused.
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I had an ED (EDNOS) when I was 13/14 until I was 17, but 90% recovered until recently. I have just started taking citalopram for my anxiety and my eating issues are really starting to get bad again but I dont know if its just me or the medication and I dont know what to do. I was starting to go downhill before i started the medication anyway 
I had some appetite loss due to the medication so I wasnt eating much and it just reminded me of how little I needed and I feel horrified and guilty thinking about the amount I should be eating. I started writing down everything and I get so nervous if I don't just have it written down.
Part of me doesnt even mind and that is whats scaring me, but I know it will all end badly unless I can stop myself spiraling. I just feel awful because I thought I didnt have to worry about this anymore, I've been doing okay for years (I'm 20 now).
Sorry about this, I don't even know what I'm asking or trying to say, I just feel like i need to get it off my chest and maybe it will be something I can bring up with my doctor... I really dont know.
I had some appetite loss due to the medication so I wasnt eating much and it just reminded me of how little I needed and I feel horrified and guilty thinking about the amount I should be eating. I started writing down everything and I get so nervous if I don't just have it written down.
Part of me doesnt even mind and that is whats scaring me, but I know it will all end badly unless I can stop myself spiraling. I just feel awful because I thought I didnt have to worry about this anymore, I've been doing okay for years (I'm 20 now).
Sorry about this, I don't even know what I'm asking or trying to say, I just feel like i need to get it off my chest and maybe it will be something I can bring up with my doctor... I really dont know.
Just wondering, does anyone on here know a healthy BMI to do the gym?
Currently 16.4, and don't know whether I should gym tomorrow or not... Currently just running off how I feel, but wondering if people on here know what is generally recommended?
Currently 16.4, and don't know whether I should gym tomorrow or not... Currently just running off how I feel, but wondering if people on here know what is generally recommended?
Original post by Antiaris
Just wondering, does anyone on here know a healthy BMI to do the gym?
Currently 16.4, and don't know whether I should gym tomorrow or not... Currently just running off how I feel, but wondering if people on here know what is generally recommended?
Currently 16.4, and don't know whether I should gym tomorrow or not... Currently just running off how I feel, but wondering if people on here know what is generally recommended?
I haven't posted here in the longest of times but let me assure you I've been lurking and definitely feel pride beyond anything I've ever felt before that so many of you have been progressing so well.
Antiaris, you aren't supposed to exercise at ALL until you're over a BMI of 17.5, I know this because my therapist told me so; at a BMI of less than 17, your body is still only preserving... merely existing!
Get some weight on you bud, then you can eventually build upon it/convert it. I am 15.5 BMI and sure, I feel flabby, but hell - I know I'm dysmorphic. I need to pack it on before I can convert it to muscle.
Original post by Anonymous
maybe it will be something I can bring up with my doctor... I really dont know.
Hi Anon, I'm glad that you've posted here. It is a really great place for support and recovery! Anyway, you need to take fast action. Yes, your anxiety states and medication can affect your appetite. However you should not use this as a period to move back into an active ED.
You must, to start with, treat food as a medication. Three meals a day, with snacks if you fancy one, that add up to between 2000 and 2500 cals (depending on how active you are). It is early days, so avoiding a descent back into ED hell is easier than if you leave it later.
I have a severe anxiety disorder in addition to depression and a number of other conditions and I can tell you categorically that your anxiety will not diminish if you follow the ED route. In fact I can predict that it will just get worse.
Anyway, lots of best wishes to you and keep posting! I'm going on holiday today so won't be around for the rest of the week, but you're in a great thread here! These guys are truly awesome!
I think I have posted in this topic before, but I really only feel comfortable posting anonymously at the moment. Hope that doesn't offend anyone!
Not going to well for me at the moment. Specialist ED service can't pull the finger out and there seems to be a lot of confusion at the moment as to who is actually supposed to be managing my condition, them or my therapist. I feel a bit caught in the middle, with no outlet for the problem.
I was doing a lot better, I wouldn't have been considered recovered but I was making changes in the right direction and it's all gone a bit backwards lately. I feel so amazingly sick, just drained of all life. It has occured to me after all these years I probably shouldn't still be alive and now when I've decided actually there are a million things I still want to do and that I want to put my energy into something other than losing weight, I can't find the support.
I realise this is probably quite a grumbly post inbetween all of peoples fantastic acheivements and goals but I just feel very down at the moment.
Not going to well for me at the moment. Specialist ED service can't pull the finger out and there seems to be a lot of confusion at the moment as to who is actually supposed to be managing my condition, them or my therapist. I feel a bit caught in the middle, with no outlet for the problem.
I was doing a lot better, I wouldn't have been considered recovered but I was making changes in the right direction and it's all gone a bit backwards lately. I feel so amazingly sick, just drained of all life. It has occured to me after all these years I probably shouldn't still be alive and now when I've decided actually there are a million things I still want to do and that I want to put my energy into something other than losing weight, I can't find the support.
I realise this is probably quite a grumbly post inbetween all of peoples fantastic acheivements and goals but I just feel very down at the moment.
Original post by TotoMimo
I haven't posted here in the longest of times but let me assure you I've been lurking and definitely feel pride beyond anything I've ever felt before that so many of you have been progressing so well.
Antiaris, you aren't supposed to exercise at ALL until you're over a BMI of 17.5, I know this because my therapist told me so; at a BMI of less than 17, your body is still only preserving... merely existing!
Get some weight on you bud, then you can eventually build upon it/convert it. I am 15.5 BMI and sure, I feel flabby, but hell - I know I'm dysmorphic. I need to pack it on before I can convert it to muscle.
Antiaris, you aren't supposed to exercise at ALL until you're over a BMI of 17.5, I know this because my therapist told me so; at a BMI of less than 17, your body is still only preserving... merely existing!
Get some weight on you bud, then you can eventually build upon it/convert it. I am 15.5 BMI and sure, I feel flabby, but hell - I know I'm dysmorphic. I need to pack it on before I can convert it to muscle.
Do you have any coping strategies when it comes to your dysmorphia?
I'm not sure if this should be in a spoiler or not but I'll put it in just in case....
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Original post by Linweth
I'm not sure if this should be in a spoiler or not but I'll put it in just in case....
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On the dysmorphia thing as well...
I currently don't think anyone has good tips. When I've scoured the web the most I've found people talking about is covering mirrors, etc. It might be something we just need to... push through.
But the thing is to ignore the disorder and phase it out of our lives! I've found that ignorance is bliss, if you don't look at the KCal you don't think too much about everything!
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I think i'm doing well, i'm trying to eat normally and focusing on the heath and nutritional value of the food i eat rather than the calories. today i snacked on dried fruit and nuts in yogurt, scared me to **** but i ate it and i'm full and it's not scary like it usually is. i WANT to be better and i WANT to be healthy. i'm fed up of settling for my life as this, because it isn't and shouldn't be this.
i really think i'm going to crack it this time, and i'm not going to go back.
i really think i'm going to crack it this time, and i'm not going to go back.
Original post by squiff93
I think i'm doing well, i'm trying to eat normally and focusing on the heath and nutritional value of the food i eat rather than the calories. today i snacked on dried fruit and nuts in yogurt, scared me to **** but i ate it and i'm full and it's not scary like it usually is. i WANT to be better and i WANT to be healthy. i'm fed up of settling for my life as this, because it isn't and shouldn't be this.
i really think i'm going to crack it this time, and i'm not going to go back.
i really think i'm going to crack it this time, and i'm not going to go back.
I don't know why, but reading this post really helped me. It suddenly made me see things differently. its weird. We def need more posts like this
Original post by Sugarcandy
I don't know why, but reading this post really helped me. It suddenly made me see things differently. its weird. We def need more posts like this
well that made me smile
glad to have had a positive effect on someone.
i'm going through a really tough time at the moment with friends and just worries etc, but i've just realised that by using my ED to cope, i was making everything worse. it's just helped me to see that without this i would be happier and a more balanced person, which is what i need. so i'm going to do everything i can to get better this time, everything.
Original post by squiff93
well that made me smile
glad to have had a positive effect on someone.
i'm going through a really tough time at the moment with friends and just worries etc, but i've just realised that by using my ED to cope, i was making everything worse. it's just helped me to see that without this i would be happier and a more balanced person, which is what i need. so i'm going to do everything i can to get better this time, everything.
glad to have had a positive effect on someone.
i'm going through a really tough time at the moment with friends and just worries etc, but i've just realised that by using my ED to cope, i was making everything worse. it's just helped me to see that without this i would be happier and a more balanced person, which is what i need. so i'm going to do everything i can to get better this time, everything.
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I think it might be important that if we put things in spoiler tags that we say WHY they are in the spoilers. The above is just my recent med check.
The nurse gave me a copy of the Minessota Experiment to read but as I've read it already I gave it to my Gran and she now understands why I've been going through these changes! So happy to have her understand a little about it. Also I think I've grown a little taller! (Because I look like a twonk with my ankles showing from my jeans all the time...) And also making bread! So many positives!
How are the lovelies of this thread? Eating disorders are difficult to explain to family and friends, especially if they have not gone through something similar. How are all of you managing it?
A few people have been talking to me lately, and the more I think about the more I think we all have SUCH potential. Almost all of the characteristics of an eating disorder would be positives if they were directed into other areas, if we can manage that we can manage anything!
Original post by squiff93
well that made me smile
glad to have had a positive effect on someone.
i'm going through a really tough time at the moment with friends and just worries etc, but i've just realised that by using my ED to cope, i was making everything worse. it's just helped me to see that without this i would be happier and a more balanced person, which is what i need. so i'm going to do everything i can to get better this time, everything.
glad to have had a positive effect on someone.
i'm going through a really tough time at the moment with friends and just worries etc, but i've just realised that by using my ED to cope, i was making everything worse. it's just helped me to see that without this i would be happier and a more balanced person, which is what i need. so i'm going to do everything i can to get better this time, everything.
Im sorry things are going badly for you but I am produ that you are still able to see past this and see the light at the end of the tunnel. If you keep on going like this, I promise you will be out of the tunnel before you know it!!!!!
Worried about Custard, she hasn't posted for a week now...anybody know how she is doing???
I'm also a bit concerned. Would everyone post how they're getting on just so I know we're all okay?
Original post by TotoMimo
I'm also a bit concerned. Would everyone post how they're getting on just so I know we're all okay?
You doing ok?
Up and down. Feeling great - started off the week great but now eating less than ever and finding it easier to eat less. Not good and will bite me in the bum.
Original post by TotoMimo
I'm also a bit concerned. Would everyone post how they're getting on just so I know we're all okay?
Are you ok Toto?
I was worrying about you. I've been meaning to post for a while but have been deleting pretty much every post.
Not really too great at the moment tbh, been feeling really unwell in terms of general mental health so my eating is pretty dire right now.
I'm ok though. Or I will be, anyway. to everyone.
