Hi, i just feel like i really need to talk about this now. I don't have an ED by any means i don't think, but i'm 5'10 and if i go over 8 and a half stone i feel disgusting and fat and automatically lose any weight that i manage to put on. My boyfriend prefers me to put some weight on and says i look better for it but i literally can't do it and it gets me really really down. I try to eat 1200-1500 cals a day but the last two weeks it's pretty much just been a bowl of soup and a sandwich everyday. I know this probably sounds really stupid and i'm sorry for wasting your time but i haven't been a healthy weight since i was 12 and all this started *now 18* and even though i know im underweight i feel so huge and i can't physically make myself put the weight on. Sorry for wasting your time, thanks.