I'd had sex with 5 guys before the guy that I'm currently seeing.
I've always had a really high sex drive, so got the "urge" and i proper super duper love the foreplay side of it, but the actual sex was always "meh" - I basically looked at it as being there for him to enjoy because it did next to nothing for me.
Howevs, I've been seeing this fella for like, 8 months now and the sex is amazing. He takes the time to make sure I'm super turned on and when he actually penetrates me it feels ridiculously awesome.
THUS: Sometimes you can be unlucky enough to meet a mass of bad sex.
I still can't orgasm through penetration alone, but we both took the time to play around and learn what does it for both of us, so there hasn't been a time where I haven't orgasmed at the end of it. I love oral, so that does it fo' me, but you say that you can make yourself orgasm, do that?
If i'm into the sex, I want to cum during the sex, and so i'll touch myself as he ****s me. Works.
You just need to play around with it. It's supposed to be fun anyway, so you might as well just throw yourself into it instead of worrying about how terrible it's going to be.
I mean, you haven't even had sex but you've already wrote it off as being ****.