Original post by love&squalor.I couldn't deal with the time difference, it would tear me to pieces, I wake up in the morning, and I'll a morning text for me to read whilst I get ready and head off to class, it's just the little things like that keep me going, the odd hours would be murder as I'm already on 4-6 hours sleep a night as I live near on 3 hours from my school, and to be able to talk to him at night I can't get to bed early, so I can sympathise with your time difference! I suppose in someways we're both keeping busy, he's at uni, and he's got a part time job now to save up for more visits, and I'm in school, but it stresses me out as I know I probably take too much time out of working or revising to talk to him, and I can see myself slipping up, I know I have my Prelims to worry about, and that'll I'll pull the exams off that matter, it's just I feel a little helpless, he knows I need to work, and he encourages me to do so, but I always put it off and put it off so I can talk more. (sorry for the super long sentence, rant mode :') ) Well, anyway, I know my relationship is strong, stronger than anyother have, and hopefully the only relationship I'm going to have now, and my friend group in supportive, I just feel like I'm building a very precarious house of cards with my school work, neglecting it almost. I suppose for now, that's the best I can manage, we're as happy as ever, plans are in place for the next visit, it just catches me sometimes, and little things make me thing of him, but well, it'll never be easy, we've just got to manage until I finish my last two years of school, and we can try move closer; here's hoping to two very fast years filled with visits and holidays!
The other thing that's been helping is the little things of his I have, my traintickets from the visits, his shirt that still smells of him, a little wrist band from his favourite club, his presents he sends, they're just the little things that remind me I haven't been dreaming!