I always feel so ugly compared to my sister??

My brother's a model in Hollister. He also is studying in a degree for History at Oxford so I can't go the 'I'm smarter than you route'. What I do do, is reitreate to myself that I am my own person and that if I going to go through life holding myself to an arbitrary benchmark that will cast a shadow over everything I do it's not going to be enjoyable. I can't give you advice on looks because my fashion sense is zero.

I can relate to this so much. I'm not ugly myself and I get told that I'm pretty enough when I'm on my own but whenever I'm with my older sister all I ever I hear is how pretty she is. Even relatives will see us together and comment on how beautiful she is and just seem to forget that I'm even there. Admittedly she is absolutely gorgeous and thin but it's not nice to feel like the ugly sister, especially when I know that I'm not actually ugly; I'm just quite plain and nowhere near as good-looking as her. When we were in town together a manager from Hollister just walked up to her, didn't even acknowledge me and offered her a job on the spot and she had to point out the fact that she was with me when he invited her inside; he looked shocked that I was there. When I was younger I used to feel really fat and ugly in comparison; I've gotten over that now but I still feel quite inadequate next to her. She's also extremely confident which is something that I'm not and people always go on about how she's one of the nicest and most fun people they've ever met.
I've always been better academically and it's pretty much the one area that she doesn't excel in so I guess that sometimes I try too hard to make that obvious; I just end up feeling like more of a prick for it though because it's just emphasises how nice she is in comparison to me. I mean you'd assume that being that gorgeous she'd at least be a bitch lol but she's seriously not. She is honest to god one of the loveliest people I know and it just serves to make me feel even guiltier in being jealous because I know that she'd never purposely try to make me feel bad.
Anyway that didn't really help anything, just a general rant to get it off of my chest

No she's not horrible at all lol, I didn't mean to make it out that way.
When the Hollister guy asked her to go into the shop she said 'Oh well I'm shopping with my little sister now so can I come back another time?' and she was desperately looking for a job so I couldn't exactly expect her to turn it down. It was him who was being the prick and ignoring that I was there. I feel a bit bad about making her seem horrible now, she's really nice actually (to point of it being sickening sometimes lol). She's just ****ing annoyingly gorgeous and friendly but it's not her fault; it's not like she encourages people to compliment her and not me. I think she's aware of it actually and feels a bit guilty about it so she's always complimenting me on how I look.

I feel bad because I should be happy for her but my self esteem is just getting worse and worse. Some people tell me Im pretty, some people shout that Im ugly.

I could never bring a guy home incase he fell for my sister instead.

Im 18, how can I stop comparing my looks to my sisters

My brother's a model in Hollister. He also is studying in a degree for History at Oxford so I can't go the 'I'm smarter than you route'. What I do do, is reitreate to myself that I am my own person and that if I going to go through life holding myself to an arbitrary benchmark that will cast a shadow over everything I do it's not going to be enjoyable. I can't give you advice on looks because my fashion sense is zero.

Please keep anon.

My sister is in the year below me at school. She came to the same sixth form as me and so many people have told me how pretty my sister is, asked if they can take her on a date etc. If we go out together I feel so ugly in comparison and its starting to get me down because Im just invisible if Im with her.

I feel bad because I should be happy for her but my self esteem is just getting worse and worse. Some people tell me Im pretty, some people shout that Im ugly.

I could never bring a guy home incase he fell for my sister instead.

Im 18, how can I stop comparing my looks to my sisters

Please keep anon.

My sister is in the year below me at school. She came to the same sixth form as me and so many people have told me how pretty my sister is, asked if they can take her on a date etc. If we go out together I feel so ugly in comparison and its starting to get me down because Im just invisible if Im with her.

I feel bad because I should be happy for her but my self esteem is just getting worse and worse. Some people tell me Im pretty, some people shout that Im ugly.

I could never bring a guy home incase he fell for my sister instead.

Im 18, how can I stop comparing my looks to my sisters

Or you can just study science, and go hey I study science.

pm me his number

Please keep anon.

My sister is in the year below me at school. She came to the same sixth form as me and so many people have told me how pretty my sister is, asked if they can take her on a date etc. If we go out together I feel so ugly in comparison and its starting to get me down because Im just invisible if Im with her.

I feel bad because I should be happy for her but my self esteem is just getting worse and worse. Some people tell me Im pretty, some people shout that Im ugly.

I could never bring a guy home incase he fell for my sister instead.

Im 18, how can I stop comparing my looks to my sisters