Depression Society MKVI

They'd never catch me, I'll disappear into the ether

Yes dear.

Can I come disappear with you?

so the mirtazapine works pretty well, slept for 15 of the last 24 hours now awake and making myself a curry

also, wtf is it with the dreams im having, vivid and weird doesn't even begin to cover it :/ sufficed to say the one I just had has creeped me out somewhat!

hope all the brilliant people here are doing well?

But of course!

You know, i wish i could cry, it's a way of releasing all your emotions that are bottled up, but i can't anymore, and because of it i feel like some kind of empty shell. Theres no harm in crying, but it obviously indicates you aren't feeling well.

Don't worry too much if you don't get voted in as a rep. I tried running for treasurer last year for one of our societies (so kinda similar in some respects), and though i was there much longer than the other person running for the position, knew a lot of the people in the society and had helped out the society with a bunch of things, i lost. I think partly because i was up against a girl.

Sadly, when it comes to being voted for something its mostly a popularity contest, so the extroverts tend to win. If you do get voted in gratz, but if you dont, you won't have the stress that comes with it

Its funny that being a genuinely good student/pupil brings so much hatred from peers, even at higher education. People will always see the bad before they see the good in someone, and assume the worst rather than the best...and then there's jealously. Theres lots explanations for why people may look down on you, but none of them are valid. Stand tall, keep being awesome, and eventually you'll see that people are using your standards as a goal to aim for, which is something to be proud of. That said, take that with humility when it happens.

The sleeping with the friend thing is kind of natural, to seek comfort in someone you know. Personally, i think the fact you have someone you can have sex with whenever should give you some confidence in your looks and personality, but i'm biased since i havent been with someone for over 3 years.

You'll get over him eventually, i know that sounds cliche but its true, from personal experiance. It's just the time it takes can last a while and be painful.

I would mention this depression to a GP if you haven't already, depression and anxiety problems are a common thing they deal with, and they deal with it all professionally, they can give you more options. As for your counsellor, mention as much as you can; the more you tell them the more they can help. Its like with anything, the more information you are given the more you can work out to fix things.

As for the friends thing, theres always us peeps on here ready to chat

That's the interesting thing - my new CPN up here really wasn't happy with the meds that I've been on in the past and currently, and promised me that "their psychiatrist could do a better job", then when I actually met with this psychiatrist (with the CPN present) she decided to just keep me on the same meds because "they're working".

I think in reality she thinks I've got BPD (wrong) so she's reluctant to medicate the 'bipolar'.
I'm left here wondering exactly how many depressive, manic and mixed episodes I need to have for them to stop thinking " childhood abuse = BPD and never anything else".

Maybe we should all take turns to follow bad psychiatrists around so they know how paranoia feels

so the mirtazapine works pretty well, slept for 15 of the last 24 hours now awake and making myself a curry

also, wtf is it with the dreams im having, vivid and weird doesn't even begin to cover it :/ sufficed to say the one I just had has creeped me out somewhat!

hope all the brilliant people here are doing well?

Thanks, man.

I already have a GP (on medication at the moment - thinking I might need to go back and get the dose increased). I might go. Might not. Might go and see the counsellor too (for the first time since November )

so the mirtazapine works pretty well, slept for 15 of the last 24 hours now awake and making myself a curry

also, wtf is it with the dreams im having, vivid and weird doesn't even begin to cover it :/ sufficed to say the one I just had has creeped me out somewhat!

hope all the brilliant people here are doing well?

Yeah, I had the same. Such weird dreams :/ on the bright side, I swear it's bringing creativity out, which for a(n amateur) musician/music scholar is awesome.

I am having the Samaritans contact me soon, but honestly I'm fine.



Was having one of them moments.

Sounds pretty normal for mirtazapine, I had the exact same symptoms. The dreams are kind of fun in a way until they get scary then they're scary as ****. Should wear off after a little bit though.

Yeah, I had the same. Such weird dreams :/ on the bright side, I swear it's bringing creativity out, which for a(n amateur) musician/music scholar is awesome.

Good time? Hahahaaa. It's been crap

oh I understand, please keep your self safe. did they call back and are you feeling a bit better now

A lot of drugs can activate more of your brain, bring out creativity and help to solve problems in a similar way. Shame those drugs are illegal .__.

psilocybin mushrooms

If I had my way they'd be legal, along with cannabis.

and MDMA

And LSD - hell I'd probably legalise everything.