HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIGHTACANDLE!! And I've only just caught up with all this talk and it's seeming a little negative at the minute (Melissa, I actually just noticed the post about your cracked rib, sweetheart - please be careful m'dear!)
Anyway, I thought I would post a bit more uplifting-toned post.
Basically, I am struggling back and forth, I allow myself a few days a week to "feed the ED", which in itself is a terrible thing, but it is by no means better than the insane anxiety I get by trying to jump in as a completely normal, "hey, whatever goes" citizen. Even after almost a year and a half of recovery it still holds me down.
But the good news - I am up from my all-time low of 91lbs,
to my weigh-in today of 117lbs!! Moreover,
MY HAIR IS GROWING BACK IN. I didn't think I'd ever see it again in my life, but my hair, albeit fine, is COMING BACK. I was so excited, as it went from bald, patchy, horrific jaundice to just suddenly appearing after a few days, and I want you to compare the me of TODAY, enjoying a YO! SUSHI meal with my sister to the me from March last year, where I had a mere fortnight to live (As I so often remind people, my liver was dying, my kidneys had ceased functioning, and my family appeared to interject at the last moment).
PICTURES:
MARCH 2011 :
TODAY (AUGUST 2012):
You and I, we CAN fight this.
And we WILL beat this. I am experiencing life having walked on the edge of death, and it is so much sweeter knowing that I can, at the drop of a hat, go for a meal. I don't have to lie and say I have prior engagements. I don't have to run miles every day. My body is battered and bruised, riddled with osteoperosis and the scars of my physical self-torture. But I am not that man any more, and you are not those people any more. The first step was noticing your illness; the second was posting here.
I believe in you all.