So, I was in an LDR for 9 months. She's at university/college in New York; i'm in London. She decided to end things on valentines day which broke my heart. I was devistated. It's profoundly more difficult when you're the dumpee, as it's usually unexpected (in my case it was).
Well, she ended things due to the lack of proximity, and, honestly, I understood where she was coming from. She basically said that, in 9 months, we'd only seen each other once and that was when she made the effort to come to London. However, i'd already told her that this year would be different (i'm in my final year of A levels and as a result, my Mum was not willing to let me go). So, I managed to convince my Mum to let me purchase tickets to NY (i'd actually saved up money from a part-time job), and i'll be seeing her in April.
So, we're on talking terms again. And, things are going really well. We're practically back to normal (we skype endlessly, just like we use to). We're practically a couple again (however, she says that she'd rather discuss the technicalities of our relationship in person). Now, here's the problem....
A day after ending our relationship, she slept with someone else. This came as a completely surprise to me. It was totally out of character. She'd never been the type to do this. The fact that I still loved her made it hurt that much more. Apparently there was no sex; it was strictly kissing and "maybe" oral sex (she says that she doesn't quite remember). Then, a few days later she had a brief (like 2 minutes according to her) make out session with the same guy ;( it really hurts...I knew about this prior to booking the tickets btw, and I feel like an idiot for doing so ;( surely if she truly loved me, she wouldn't have done that? Idk..i'm trying to negate the negative thoughts, and on the whole it's going well but sometimes they still creep in..and it really hurts..idk..am I wrong for feeling like this?? I'm trying to exhibit nothing but forgiveness and compassion towards her but I can't deny the fact that it truly does sting (and I never mention the "incident" in our conversations btw)..